* The Elements of Life *

BFF

2012-02-06T00:55:00.002+08:00

朋友之间的坦白确实让我觉得欣慰。
今天第一次到朋友家拜年，感觉很新鲜。
一大清早就相约好到大巴刹吃客家面。
过后到了三个朋友的家拜年，吃了好多好多的东西。
从巴刹出发到第一个朋友的家时，另一个同样也是芙蓉人的朋友说，“Naaaa, 这里就是我长大的地方啦～”
当时，我就好像坐上小叮当的时光机回到了他小时候的地方一样，顿时觉得很温暖，也很感触。

朋友啊，
谢谢你愿意与我分享你生活的点滴，
也谢谢你对我的关心。
现在的我，非常珍惜和你一起相处聊天的日子。
能有你这么一个朋友，我好欣慰。
我爱你，朋友 : )

I hate cats but this pic looks cute ;)

123456

2012-01-31T23:01:00.000+08:00

喜欢一个人，可以有很多理由；
但爱一个人，有时候并不需要理由。

个人取向

2012-01-29T17:28:00.002+08:00

《个人取向》，这是一部蛮旧了的韩剧（2010年3月），但是我前2个月才把这部戏给看完。觉得很开心的是，我在这部剧推出后不久在逛书局时偶然买了这本电视剧小说。

剧情简介：
《个人取向》是改编了李玺仁同名小说的电视剧，孙艺珍饰演主角朴个人。剧中朴个人是20代后半的家具设计师，也是创出单身用家具品牌的年轻CEO。她经常会连发横冲直撞失误和事故，也因为固执地相信一个人而受到背叛和伤害，但她仍然是明快开朗的、拥有纯粹干净灵魂的女人。

　　剧中遭遇失恋的女主角朴个人想找个心意相通的同性恋做朋友，她以为偶然相识的全真浩（♥李民镐♥）是同性恋，从而开始别样的同居生活，电视剧将明快讲述生活在同一屋檐下同床异梦的两人之间发生的种种趣事。通过别样同居生活，她将一改恋爱生手模样，找回被自己遗忘的女性魅力，并逐渐成长。
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至于小说，当初买下后只翻了几页就放在一边了。看过这部戏剧后又重新对它产生了浓浓的厚感。昨天闲着没事做，又翻了几页，然后再看看书皮的后面，那边写了几行字，几行让我觉得颇有同感的字。。。。。。

“其实我也知道，以一个女人来说，我真的一点魅力也没有。整个人死板板的，不会打扮、不会撒娇、没有女人味，再加上生性鲁莽，老爱出错。。。。。。
但是如果有一个心灵相通，又善解人意的同性恋男朋友，我开心的时候，他跟我一起大笑；我伤心的时候，他陪我一起哭；我孤单的时候，温暖抱抱我，这样，我应该就满足了。。。。。。”

在想，真的能有像这样的一个人吗？或许。。。有吧？:)
期待你的到来。

微笑吧，朋友！

2012-01-27T01:35:00.003+08:00

不要因为感觉上变了质的东西而伤心哭泣，
要因曾经共同拥有的美好回忆而开心微笑。
微笑吧，朋友！; )
因为我很♥很♥你们。

CNY Day 2

2012-01-24T22:10:00.001+08:00

CNY day 2:I'm sick. Hopefully I'll be fine by tomorrow *prays hard*Till then.

I wanna lose weight ! ! !

2012-01-23T02:48:00.002+08:00

Have been eating too much lately.
I had large, frequent meals compared to others who had small and frequent meals.
Started to feel the friction between my thighs whenever I walk.
This is a SIGN.
And so, I need to lose some weight!!!
A bit motivated to start exercising since last week but hehe.. so far I did nothing at all.

CNY

2012-01-20T23:03:00.001+08:00

Everyone is going back home happily for Chinese New Year.
I am among the lucky ones who get to stay at home everyday.
3 more days to the celebration of the dragon's year.
But...

Sighs, a rather lonely CNY for me this year :'(
Frankly speaking, it's my first time for not wishing to celebrate CNY.
I guess I'd just rest at home on the second day of CNY and that's all :)
Anyway, wishing everyone a happy and prosperous Chinese New Year!

Till then.

I-L-Y

2012-01-20T16:30:00.000+08:00

Experienced something scary in the morning while driving to work which has caused me to realize so much about the importance of people around me.

Life is short and unpredictable.
Show and express your love in time or you gonna regret for the rest of your life.

So yea, ILY ♥

And I do cherish every moment that I have with each and everyone of you.

: D

Study. Friends. Family

2012-01-15T19:48:00.000+08:00

Started food service practicum this week.
Everyday was busy making fries and coleslaw, frying eggs, cooking porridge and helping colleagues to peel tonnes of garlic and onions.
I have learnt a lot of things related to cooking i.e actual temperature to be used for diff types of food, time, etc etc...
After working for 6 days long, I just wanna rest at home.
Did not join family for dinner for 2 days just because I was dead tired :(
Assignments are still pending but as for the time being, I will sleep to regain my energy.

To myself.

2012-01-14T20:52:00.002+08:00

1. Disappointed. Upset. Speechless.
Okay. Just keep it somewhere and bury it all. Smiling is the key to happiness.

2. Remember what you promised.
Never tell anyone. Never. Never. Never.

3. This may be the last one for you.
A car can bring you around Malaysia and Thailand or Singapore but not Korea nor Australia. Because afterall, this car is not an airplane. You should know to what extent your ability can bring you to.

4. Learn to respect. Learn to improve your EQ.
There is a limit for everything.If you think your limit is approaching to its end , stay silent and turn away.

So what?!

2012-01-13T18:23:00.001+08:00

So what if you know how to cook?So what if I don't know how to cut vegetables nicely?So what if you fry sausages in front of me?So what if you cook the rice?So what? So what?!!!!Ishhhh... I dislike you! I need a psychologist or a counsellor. >.<"

你好，我熟悉的新朋友！

2012-01-11T23:23:00.003+08:00

“你好，朋友。
很高兴认识了一个更不一样的你。”

今天，我多了一个朋友。
一个曾经熟悉但我却没能深入了解的朋友。

朋友，
谢谢你给予我的信任；
谢谢你愿意对我敞开胸怀。

想说，

虽然未来的路会很曲折，很颠簸，
外界的眼光也并不会来得特别友善，
但是我会好好守护着这一段友谊，
希望在往后的日子里，我们能够进一步成为知己！
加油加油！！！

Shhhh~

2012-01-08T19:17:00.004+08:00

偷偷告诉你，我刚剪完头发 :)
嘘～～～～～～～～～～

Some random notes.

2012-01-08T02:30:00.000+08:00

1. I have the mood for blogging but unfortunately there's nothing to blog about.

2. Bro has finally graduated on Friday (6th Jan 2012). More pics will be uploaded later.

3. Sis's big day is just around the corner but I have no idea what to buy for her : (

4. Gotta go shopping for the entire day tomorrow till I got enough of my white shirts for my food service attachment.

5. Dear money, please love me and promise me to stay in my purse and bank either till June or July.

6. Went to the Shah Alam Botanical Garden today. Everything i.e. the place and environment was great albeit we sweat a lot throughout the trip. Had fun because they were with me. Anyway, thanks for the sandwiches, pudding and drinks, Jessie. : ) [No pics for this as cammie was still with bro this morning.]

7. Watched Mission Impossible and The Darkest Hour within these 3 days. Managed to buy chatime before the movies too :D

8. Starting food service practicum in the next 72 hours. But I'm more prepared for Chinese new year : s

Till then. time to sleep. Good night, everyone!

Loves,
73 ;)

卑。悲

2012-01-05T01:53:00.000+08:00

为什么，我一说9点要去喝茶，你就要给我那副样子？
为什么，他们说11点要去喝茶饮酒，你却一副无所谓的样子，只叮咛他们要早点回？
为什么，我只去某些地方，你就认为我一直往外跑？
为什么，我反驳你的时候，你就说我在顶嘴？
为什么，他们反驳你的时候，你却欣然接受？
为什么？我不明白，也不了解。

很多时候，事情在最后一秒才发生变化，我也不过早你们几分钟知道，你们却说我没有规划好我的时间。难道这也是我的错吗？
对不起，我不是神仙，我没有预测未来的能力。
我已经作出让步，为什么你们就是无法谅解？

Cutie pie?

2012-01-02T23:07:00.000+08:00

Why la why la~ Why la cutie pie??? *sighsssssss*
*别扭 + 苦恼 -ing ～*

Define "U" and "I" ~

2012-01-02T01:23:00.002+08:00

Don't wish to write on fb so will just write it here since there will be less people to read it here : )

Have been thinking quite some time about this issue. I'm not sure whether I got it right or wrong.
"Hmm, do I like you?"
"Can I rely on you?"
"Should I ask you that question?"
"How would you classify the relationship between us? Just friends? Or slightly more than that?" Because what you did tend to make me think another way round.
"Should I just stop thinking and let things develop as what they supposed to be?"

Ahhh I get so confused and clueless now.

Till then. Good night!

New Year. New Life. New Resolutions.

2012-01-02T00:58:00.000+08:00

Hey all. First of all, would like to wish everyone happy 2012!!

New year new resolutions.

My new year resolutions?? Haha... as below:

i) Save more money for the upcoming graduation trip.

--> I think I gotta get all the vouchers and coupons cut and keep them in my purse XD

--> Learn to spend smartly and wisely. For this, I will try my best to suppress and refrain myself from buying unnecessary things so often.

ii) Spend more time with family and friends.

--> It's gonna be my last sem this year so I would love to create more memories before graduation, perhaps by taking more pictures?

Okay. I'll stop here cuz I know I will somehow not follow what was being written :P Writing new year resolutions at the beginning of every year has never been my habit since young. Neither do I go out to shopping malls or any other places with friends for countdown. So yea, just forget about it.

Once again, happy new year! = ]

Life?

2011-12-29T02:07:00.003+08:00

It's been really a long time since I posted the very last post on 7th Dec 2010.
One year had just passed in the blink of an eye.
Well, things happened. People changed.
And yet, the time is still running. So does the universe, which is still growing day by day.

Whether or not, you're in deep shit because you accidentally deleted all your important documents in your computer;
Whether or not, you're jumping for joy because someone has just proposed to you;
Whether or not, you're angry with someone or hating someone else because someone was teasing about your appearance and outfits,
Life still moves on.
This is the fact of life,
And also the ugliest truth of life.

Accept this truth.
Be it. Live it. Love it.

ll 小孩 l 大人 ll

2010-12-07T02:17:00.000+08:00

日子一天一天地在过，人一天一天地在长大，经验慢慢地慢慢地在累积，活在这世上已有21年又9个月之久，看过的种种人、事、物，虽然不能说非常多，但也不算少。

不了解现今的小孩脑子里装的是什么样子的东西。人小鬼大，乳臭未干，年纪尚小就已学电视里男女主角说宝贝我爱你啊，我想你啊什么的，然后再偷尝禁果，最后来个未婚先孕，奉子成婚，值得吗？爱情，如果有那么简单的话，世界各地的离婚率就不会酱高啦！这些甚至连入世已深的大人都无法参透的东西，你们小孩子懂什么？爱情，不是随随便便对对方说我爱你，你爱我就会走完你人生的下半辈子的。现在的世界，任何你觉得会是一辈子的事情都可以随时改变。环境、心态、思想不会永远停滞不前，这些因素，只会一直在改变。有人说过：“环境会改变一个人。” 真的，一个人的心态和思想会因周遭的环境而作出变换。

小孩，还是做回你们该做的事比较好，那么小就那么急着想长大，试问你不会有长大的那一天吗？人生长长几十年，做大人的时间远比做小孩的时间还要久，到时候，你就不会想再做大人了。

好好想想吧～

=)

2010-08-17T01:28:00.000+08:00

遇到你们是我的幸运
感谢一路以来给我的加油打气与鼓励

第一个要感谢的人：
感谢你，对我始终不离不弃，
经历过了许多，虽不能算是狂风暴雨，
至少这里有你我哭过笑过的回忆与痕迹，
对不起，那天让你担心了，嗯，眼泪要怎么偿还啊？
傻婆，我会让自己过得好好地，
让我比你长命多十秒好不好？

第二个要感谢的人：
感谢你，在我需要的时候伸出援手，
笑多点，因为你笑的时候最可爱 ^.^
还有，你在我心里也有一点位子啦，
再来一个对不起，原因如同上面，不好意思，让你担心了。

第三个和第四个要感谢的人：
感谢你，把我当成可以诉说心事的朋友，
对不起，我今天让你失望了,
不过我会努力的，加油！

第五个和第六个要感谢的人：
感谢你们，替我保守秘密，
感谢你今天点给我的歌：You and Me by Olivia Ong
说真的，很感动 =D
谢谢你们。

还有很多我想感谢的人，
感谢你，对我敞开双手，给我拥抱，也让我抱抱你。
喜欢拥抱，不是因为其他的原因，而是我觉得拥抱能让心灵找到一个慰籍，不然我会很快疯掉；一个拥抱，不需言语多加点缀，也可以很温暖。

真的，朋友在一起，不需过力的讨好，也不需武装自己，
只需一个条件：自然、不做作就好，大方地呈现自己吧！

掰掰～

Donation

2010-07-05T02:21:00.003+08:00

Donation comes in all forms.
It can be either cash, materials like daily needs, shirts and foods.

But I have a question here.
Does anyone out there donate something called 'confidence'?
I need it, seriously.
Especially the kind of 'Confidence' that can breed within one self.

사랑(sarang) = 爱?

2010-06-12T01:47:00.004+08:00

   有些人，因为爱而幸福；

   有些人，因为爱而受伤，

那你，是哪一种啊？

A summary of all.

2010-05-22T02:34:00.006+08:00

Alright. Just wanna make it simple and not too lengthy.

   Went on a vacation with my girls after eos as usual. This sem had been a superb hectic one to me, or maybe 'us' i should say. Everyone was busy with their own group projects, proposals, presentations, reports, assignments, etc etc etc...and 6 of us were mostly separated from each other for each and every task or project given. *sighs* There's no time to hang out, no time to have fun, no time to be wasted any longer. 14 weeks seemed long to me previously but it's not anymore since sem 3. Timetable was packed, packed and packed!!! Breaktime? no no.. no more 2 or more than 2-hour break in between classes. Even if there's a slot, it will NEVER be a free one cuz you will be asked to stay at the campus for endless discussion sessions with all your beloved groupmates. It's lifeless but that's what we should do and what we must do as sem 4 students right right? *nods* Everyone worked hard and studied hard but what about me? Yes, I was kind of motivated to buck up at the beginning of this sem and everything went along well (for class test 1 >.<"). BUT BUT BUT... determination wasn't with me all the time for class test 2 and procrastination was here all the time. *poof* There goes my determination and here comes the procrastination (this conforms to the Newton's 3rd law of motion: when a force is exerted on a matter or subject, there will be another same force acting oppositely or something like that.. XD) oops sorry im crapping.=.="

   Okieeeee, get back to the main point. So after being at the high-class-hell for 14 weeks, a two-week-study break began. Initially I was planning to visit the library every alternative days. Somehow I went to the library for almost every day. Don't get me wrong. Yes I went to the library almost every single day except sat and sun but I'm not a total nerd cuz I spent most of my time kacau-ing those people who were studying real hard, walking here and there, chit-chatting, eating, sleeping, playing etc etc.. *tic toc tic toc* and yea, 2 weeks of study break just gone like this, seriously.

   Bla bla bla~ Let's skip the eos part and continue with post-eos events!!! Other batchmates went Puchong for shabu-shabu right after the very last paper whereas 6 of us went home straight after that. Unbelievable right? lolz ^.^ Life is getting more happening after that day *evil grins*

i) Sing k session with JcTang and baby ww at Neway. (I taught Jc to say something about ww when she saw her... ngek ngek)

ii) Perhentian trip: A 3D2N trip with Qi, Jctang, Lingy and SooWei. It was a fun yet exciting trip to me!!! and we did have lotsa fun there. More pics?? Kindly log on to www.facebook.com. >.<''

Credits to: JcTang (http://www.facebook.com/album.php?id=598833164&aid=171237&s=60&hash=5188f843ce04ff704a761a1472fe3ffc#!/photos.php?id=598833164)

I ♥ polaroid~~~

The snorkeling session~! =))

lingy-qi-jc

me-soowei-jc

Group Pics~♥!

♥Soowei♥Lingy♥Qi♥Me♥Jc♥

In the room = D

♥ this one.

Spot the rainbow ^.^ nice right?

iii) Another sing k session with Qi, Jc, Lingy and Baby ww before the results were out. I wasn't that scared until 30 mins b4 the clock stopped at 4pm sharp. Got my results. Passed sem 4! =^.^= Welcome, my lovely sem break ~♥~

iv) what's next??? hmmm... malacca one-day trip!!!! *woots*

v) I wanna watch Oh My Lady... = (

Guess that's the end of it. English kinda cacat-ed. My apology for that.
By the way, I've got something precious from a friend. It's not something fancy but rather a practical one.
She said this to me when i was a bit upset about the results this afternoon: "Chee Shan, 要知足." (translation: be contented with what you have now). Surprisingly I just got inspired by this "知足". Thank you to whoever you are. = D

And thanks to the one who cares about me most of the time. You know who you are. Heart you loads. :*

Till then, bye~

Super Junior --- Bonamana

2010-05-12T19:43:00.000+08:00

Super Junior is finally back with their 4th album!!! ^^

久违了的另一封信

2010-05-10T01:25:00.008+08:00

1. 某天清晨，一睁开眼就看到你的脸庞，我会觉得，当时的我，是世界上最幸福的人。

2. 不是我不知好歹，看不清楚你对我的付出。

3. 现在的我，不擅于常把我对你的爱挂在嘴边。

4. 有人说：“没有戒不了的毒，只有戒不了的爱”，这一句，我很赞同，因为，你就是我那戒不了的爱。

5. 爱需要无限量的包容、体谅和宽恕，这几点，你都做到了。

6. 抱歉，是我不好，让你为我哭了好多回，也让你为我担心了好多遍。

7. 你永远不会是我生命中的过客，你的出现也不会是昙花一现，因为我已在心中的某个角落，为你盖了一座城堡。

8. 经历了许多，不管是喜是悲，是好是坏，我的身边总有一个你，对我不离不弃，真的，很感谢你。

9. 因为你的坚持，你的开朗，所有的事情都变得不一样了。

10. 今天的我，有一部分，是你朔造而成的，谢谢。

11. 要我当面说我爱你，我会觉得很别扭、很奇怪，对不起，是我不够好。

12. 喜欢和你你在一起，因为和你在一起的时候，总觉得时间过得特别快。 >.<''

13. 不想和你说再见，只因不想和你分离。

14. 不喜欢看见你受委屈的样子，因为这样的你，让我好心疼。

15. 我答应你，会尽全力做好我自己。而你也必须答应我，要对自己好一点，好吗？（我知道你会的 ^.^）

一起加油吧！晚安～！: *

×= 完 =×

CheNyum 체념 (Resignation)

2010-05-09T04:26:00.005+08:00

About few days ago, I was playing my songs on iTunes as what I usually did and suddenly there's a song that caught my attention - 체념 CheNyum (Resignation) by Yesung from SuJu. Although I did not know what the song is about, I just felt touched. I know, it must be a sad story.

So I searched for this song on YouTube as I wondered who would be the original singer of it. 5 seconds later, the result list was out and Big Mama was the one who sang it in 2007. Initially I thought that this song would be quite recent (recent as in 1 year ago) cuz they will perform using the most recent sources but I was wrong. Thanks to Yesung who sang this during the SS2 concert in Malaysia. There are many singers out there who sang this song too i.e Junsu from TVXQ and SunYe from Wondergirls but I will just share the one that was sung by Yesung, Junsu and the original singer- Big Mama. (I love Yesung's version and Big Mama's version =))

This is the one by Big Mama. （p/s: 虽然后面唱到声音沙哑，但是还是超好听，因为你的情绪会被她的声音牵动然后感动。边听边看歌词甚至会让你有起鸡皮疙瘩、头皮发麻、心揪在一起的感觉。)

This is the one by Yesung from Suju during his solo in Super Show 2 Live in Malaysia. He was sick that time but you will be totally absorbed to his voice. If you wanna get another version when he was healthy there are plenty of them. =)

This is the one by Xiah Junsu from TVXQ.

Hope you will like it. Have a nice day! : )
The end.

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Super Junior is coming back!!!!Apparently there will be only 10 of them who are involved in the making of the 4th album : '(

Looking forward to the exact day of release of their 4th album. SUJU HWAITING!!!

Suju comeback teaser~ <3

Off to sleep, nitez.

我以为

2010-05-08T20:07:00.004+08:00

前天考了第四张paper

可是

我以为前天是星期三

昨天忽然从午睡中惊醒

我以为在那天已是星期六
而我却还没读完epi

为什么在epi考试前一秒

还在跟notes难舍难分

因为

我以为我可以把全部notes都读完

我以为我可以

但是有时候是真的还蛮难一下

我以为我没有stress

但是其实我真的也蛮stress一下

我以为我可以控制自己

但是其实我不行

我以为这样做

或许会对我们都好一点

但是我错了

很多时候

我们都常听见

‘我以为’ 这三个字

我以为这个东西是这样的

我以为那个东西是圆的

我以为自己可以是开心的

我以为可以压抑自己不想念你

我以为。。。

‘我以为’ 真的很好用

你说一句‘我以为’

感觉讲完过后

就可以不需为自己的言行负责任

因为人家不会跟你计较那么多

因为‘我以为’ 只是自我假设

因为‘我以为’ 可以让一个人活在自己的世界里

活在自己的假设里

其实

‘我以为’ 跟 ‘好象是’ 都是半斤八两

五十步笑百步

♥ this song =)

2010-03-02T22:02:00.001+08:00

不喜欢怀疑什麽
并不表示我没有感受
看你微妙的变化慢慢不同
我不是生气只是心痛

最讨厌被误会了
但越解释越觉得难过
你可以说人会变但不能说
你会这麽做是我的错

哭过就好了伤都会好的
这样相信所以深呼吸着割舍
爱是为了拥抱为了牵手
不是为了争吵为了调头

哭过就好了痛都会走的
记忆有限所以它会淘汰坏的
失眠听歌想念虽然苦涩
还是谢谢你让我长大了

最讨厌被误会了
但越解释越觉得难过
你可以说人会变但不能说
你会这麽做是我的错

哭过就好了伤都会好的
这样相信所以深呼吸着割舍
爱是为了拥抱为了牵手
不是为了争吵为了调头

哭过就好了痛都会走的
记忆有限所以它会淘汰坏的
失眠听歌想念虽然苦涩
还是谢谢你让我长大了

越多美好堆叠的过往
想忘就得推倒更大的悲伤
要找勇气却不在口袋或手上
但它一定在我身上某个地方

哭过就好了痛都会走的
记忆有限所以它会淘汰坏的
失眠听歌想念虽然苦涩
还是谢谢你让我长大了

Just a short one for u

2010-01-12T23:39:00.003+08:00

I like the feeling of being loved

I like the feeling of being pampered

I like the feeling of being hugged by you

Thanks for willing to walk by my side all these while

and went through those ups and downs with me

Nothing is forever

but the memories we had will stay

and all the tears and laughter we had will never be forgotten

♥ Love you my dear princess ♥

Q & A

2009-12-09T20:17:00.004+08:00

laziness + procrastination = dead of blog =="

Q: Why do I blog?

A: Because it's a channel to express my feelings and thoughts.

Q: Why don't I blog?

A: Because there's no motivation in me.

Q: Why no motivation?

A: Because I don't feel like blogging.

Q: Why don't feel like blogging?

A: Because everything... and yes everything has been kept and locked in my heart.

Alright. Blog updated. Adios~

2009-10-20T17:53:00.002+08:00

I'm still waiting...

F.A.M.I.L.Y

2009-10-10T21:35:00.007+08:00

This is going to be a long one.

I have 2 other siblings, 1 being my elder sister and another one being my younger brother. I'm the second child at home =)

Brother left home few months ago to study at Malacca. Never mind. Sis and I will take care of daddy and mummy.

Sis will be going aussie next year. No worries. Cuz I will still be here, keeping an eye on daddy and mummy.

But what if..... what if I need to leave them and go to a place which is thousand miles away from them? Nobody will ever take care of them.

Parents work hard for us but most people tend to have the same thought, the thought of leaving his or her own motherland to other countries as soon as possible because they just wanna escape from home and get as much freedom they want. Yes, true. No one will bother about you when your parents are not around you and you can do anything you like without having them nag at you. But, is that the life you want for the rest of your life?

Sis once told me, parents are the only persons we can count on forever. This sentence keeps playing in my mind and yes I do agree and I have to agree with this statement.

Till now, I can still remember what Dad told me a year ago. There's no way for any parents in this world to do something harmful on their kids, except those who are mentally ill. Again, it's true.

Not being able to study abroad is not the worst thing in the life. The worst thing is that not being able to stay by the parents' side when they need and miss you when they are sick. They are the one who builds up the family, they are the one who bring you to this world, they are the one who give you siblings to keep you accompanied, they are the one who will try their very best to help you when you are in deep shit, they are the one you can count on or rely on anytime, they are the one who change your diaper when you were still a baby, they are the one who are willing to do anything in order to keep you happy all the time, they are the one who will give you the very best thing in the world, Yes, they are the one!

But, what did they get in the end? Having a family for just 10+ or 20+ yrs and the kids just leave them after being successful in their own career? That's really pathetic.

I believe all of us know what does the word 'family' means.

F- Father

A- And

M- Mother

I- I

L- Love

Y- You

Be thankful for everything you have. Cuz you are lucky to have a complete family, to have both your parents here, even though they are already divorced. Death is a silence disease but the impact of ageing can be clearly seen on them. Love yourself and learn to appreciate because you wouldn't know when will they leave you.

没得出国深造。。。

这样最好，至少。。。

我可以陪伴在父母左右啊！=)

2009-10-03T16:58:00.000+08:00

http://jay-voice.blogspot.com/2009/10/being-random.html =)

友谊之情

2009-09-20T15:25:00.003+08:00

不想再把自己推入深无见底的深渊里

因为我开始觉得恐惧

不想再管那些有的没的的东西

因为我管不着

不想再当白痴

因为我只会盲目地去做我当下想做的事情

不想再造成别人的伤害

也不想把自己弄得遍体鳞伤体无完肤惨不忍睹

刚才似乎有了少许领悟

或许得像平常人呼吸一般

保持正常的呼吸一呼一吸

没有氧气过多的一刻

亦没有缺氧窒息的一刻

这样事情才能变成永恒

也不会变质

友情

亦不是如此吗？

靠得太近

反而更害怕失去

离得太远

又觉得彼此之间好像少了点什么

所以保持一定的距离

显然是让友谊恒温的一种方法

能成为好朋友是一种福气

能成为知己更是前几辈子修来的福

因为知己会在你迷失了自我的时候引导你

因为知己会在你堕落的时候拯救你的灵魂

因为知己会在你开心的时候兴奋不已

因为知己会无时无刻都想到你牵挂住你担心着你

所以珍惜你现在所拥有的

不要把他对你做的一切当作是理所当然

不然后悔的将会是你

strictly for QI, JC, PEARLY, LINGY & SOOWEI

2009-09-14T21:15:00.005+08:00

I just wanna give you all the best in the world;

I just want u to be happy;

I just want everything back to normal;

I just want you to be blessed everyday;

I just wanna love you unconditionally;

I just wanna be there for you whenever u need me.

I don't wanna hurt you;

I don't want anyone to hurt you;

I don't wanna lose you;

I don't want you to be sad;

I don't want you to get emo;

I don't want something bad to happen on you;

I don't want to leave you alone.

Can I? I just wanna start all over again.

To the special ones

2009-09-10T00:32:00.004+08:00

I feel so in love right now

I feel lucky to have you guys with me

I feel excited when your number appears in the call log

I feel sweet when I look at my lappie's wallpaper

Life is wonderful when you are by my side

Life sucks when I see you sad or emo-ing

You guys just meant a lot to me

Im used to the current life

Being pampared by all of you

Being able to love all of you

Oh by the way,

I have been diagnosed with Type 3 DM lately

Yea, I did not make a false statement

Our 'newly invented and self-defined' type 3 DM

You wouldn't wanna keep a distance away from this disease once you have been targeted

Because to me it's addictive

And I'm very into it right now

Oops, there's no way for me to stop loving you ~

Cheers

你不是真正的快乐

2009-09-06T15:24:00.001+08:00

作词：五月天作曲：五月天

人群中哭著你只想变成透明的颜色
你再也不会梦或痛或心动了
你已经决定了你已经决定了
你静静忍著紧紧把昨天在拳心握著
而回忆越是甜就是越伤人了
越是在手心留下密密麻麻深深浅浅的刀割
你不是真正的快乐你的笑只是你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳
这世界笑了於是你合群的一起笑了
当生存是规则不是你的选择
於是你含著眼泪飘飘荡荡跌跌撞撞的走著
你不是真正的快乐你的笑只是你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳
你不是真正的快乐你的伤从不肯完全的愈合
我站在你左侧却像隔著银河
难道就真的抱著遗憾一直到老了然后才后悔著
你值得真正的快乐你应该脱下你穿的保护色
为什麼失去了还要被惩罚呢
能不能就让悲伤全部结束在此刻重新开始活著

This is for YOU my dear

2009-09-03T22:00:00.007+08:00

I know YOU will always be there for US

WE LOVE YOU FOR WHO YOU ARE

JIA YOU BABY

LIFE WOULDN'T BE AS COLOURFUL AS IT IS RIGHT NOW WITHOUT YOU

LOVE YOU for THE REST OF MY LIFE

To all my beloved girls （u know who u are)

2009-09-01T21:15:00.002+08:00

Sorry.

I should not have embarrased myself today. I knew everyone wasn't satisfied with their results but forgive me for being such a useless one.

Sorry as i couldn't hold my emotion. Lotsa thoughts kept popping in my mind.

Sorry for making you angry, if any.

Sorry for teasing you, if any.

Sorry for making you worried.

Sorry for everything i did girls.

每个人面临的都是一样的问题，只怪我太沉不住气，对不起！

我已经尽力往前游了，可是再怎么努力游都好像看不到对岸的岸线。

----------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Thank YOU~

Thanks for being by my side, providing shoulders for me to cry on, hugging me whenever i was down.

Thanks for looking after me when i was sick.

Thanks for helping me to take all my files, my books, my bags, etc when my hand was full with stuffs or when i wasn't feeling well.

Thanks for accompanying me since the very beginning. Thanks for not leaving me behind all the while.

Thanks for all the supports, either mentally or physically.

Thanks for being able to bear with my temper.

Thanks for cheering me up most of the time. ^^

Thanks for the LOVE. (p/s: love is always the best medicine ever when ur loved ones are down)

Thanks for everything that you have given me.

It's kinda hard for me to express my feelings all in words but deep inside my heart I know what is going on there.

It's my pleasure to have you all as my girls.

♥ ~ I LOVE YOU ~ ♥

bye bye

2009-08-31T14:15:00.004+08:00

Sorry for updating this blog after such a long time..Have been very busy lately with class tests, reports and stuffs. Lotsa things happened but i will keep some in my heart bcoz im lazy to write everything out here..N&D needs more time!!! 24 hours a day are not enough for us i would say. We've been working hard this sem and library has became another place to go after class. So not used to it but we have to adapt, we have no choice but to be NERDS!!
sem 3 is really a hectic one compared to sem 1 and sem 2. We do not have the time to hang around like last time but to stay at the library and get our heads buried under the notes.. "That's pathetic" (Qi 2009)..
sem 3 passes as quick as the speed of light man. it's week 9 now but still, we have endless workload, u will see us moving like half dead fishes around imu.. the MOST exciting ones (not only one) is approaching us real soon. 4 tests in a week (3 days in a row).. and it's so... omg.. i can barely breathe whenever i think of it.. i need more oxygen, i need more brain cells, i need more time, i need more sleep.

Bro is going to study at malacca finally. Hopefully he will be good there and study hard. 其实讲真的，以前小的时候超不爽他，可是当我们渐渐地长大，经历过一些事情，看事情的角度不一样了，自然而然就会从另一个角度观察他，了解他。能进到他理想的学校，一步一步地往理想走去，做姐姐的当然感到欣慰。可以顺利毕业的话更好，不然会替老豆辛苦赚来的血汗钱感到心疼。他是厉害的咯，读一年半就可以毕业出来开始领薪水，这样还不要紧，领的薪水还比我毕业出来后领的高很多倍。。我还在慢慢地爬阿爬，读酱久做莫？做营养师咯！
我知道老豆超舍不得弟弟去马六甲读书，怎样知道？眼神自然会跟你说的啦。妈妈还说老豆担心弟弟去到那边不知道可不可以适应那边的环境,怎么说弟弟也是爸拔和妈麻的一块肉，要到那么远去读书当然会担心啦！妈妈还好啦，不怎么会担心我们的，因为都长大了吧！现在家里走了一个，明年年头又多走一个，那一个还是去更远的，不知爸拔是否承受的了那种感觉，那种孩子一个一个地离开到外地深造，我想有时会觉得很空虚吧！心情开始沉重了，眼睛开始泛红了，不想继续写下去了。老弟，要好好照顾自己啊，脾气不要那么冲，加油啊！！

A letter specially for U, my dear ^^

2009-08-01T19:05:00.004+08:00

To: Friend no 1,

Just a message for u dear. Stay happy as usual. Life is full of challenges (temporary admin staff, 2009). There will be both good and bad things revolving around us everyday, every minute, every second.. Don't supress your feelings k, just tell me all the problems u face whenever feel like it.. I might not give you the best advice but I will try my very best to help you, NO MATTER WHAT.. I don't mind to be your listener forever because I know... that I'd love to be yours! I'll be by your side, 24/7 available for you and share all the happiness and sorrow in you. Frankly speaking, YOU are a VERY GREAT FRIEND of mine and I really treasure every moment we had all these while.. Be strong and i love you <3>

p/s: you know who you are right?? XD muackz~

사랑해요 只对你说

2009-07-03T23:57:00.005+08:00

I knew him a month ago through my girls. Did not pay so much attention to him coz he didn't impressed me much. As time passes by, he entered my heart slowly, steadily. Observing and discovering more and more of his attitudes, personalities and what he did throughout this period, he melts my heart totally!! My heartbeat has been fully controlled by him! He makes my day when I'm not in a good mood. I love his voice, because it makes me feel secured. I love him, because he's good at playing guitar. I love him for what he is, who he is. I'm so in love with him. Saranghamnida, SUNGMIN OPPA~ Get well soon & I LOVE YOU <3 One last thing I would like to say, minnie, YOU ARE MY EVERYTHING, YOU ARE MY ENDLESS LOVE. If possible, I would want to stay in this trap set by you forever!

Countdown-ING

2009-07-02T20:02:00.002+08:00

4 more days to sem 3~
Sem break was great to me although I did complain about my boring life sometimes.. BUT I STILL LOVE MY BREAK!!!
Time flies. I did not do anything but just rot at home.. everyone did the same thing as i did because we shared the same 'disease'-- the disease is like what sujulingy wrote in her blog.. so it's normal for us..
Life has been quite happening this week since monday. Went 3K to play badminton with my girls and some other secondary school friends.. It was nice as i have not been playing sports since ages ago.. So it's a good chance for me to burn more calories and maintain health. I first thought that Im not gonna play long because my stamina had decreased to the very minimum level but I was wrong.. We had single, double and mixed games..we have 3-on-3 match some more b4 we left.. cool eh~ dont have to move around much hoho^^ Brunch time at A&W after that cuz it's just next to 3K.. (walking distance)

Tuesday: The same gang asked me to attend for a farewell for kar mern, michael and natalie. But I didn't make myself there. To Kar Mern, Michael and Natalie, have fun in monash ya!

Wednesday: Went to uni to have dance practice. Enjoyed cuz i get to dance sorry sorry with all the mirrors in front of me!! woohoo! and my girls danced with me too~ Let's dance-dance-dance~ What's next? Errr, hunt for our clothes for orientation performance. We did not have NICE WEATHER but SUPERBLY HOT WEATHER instead!! Walked around ho cheng yuen and went back early.. Reached home around 6pm. Managed to buy jacket by the way. Thanks AiLing and everyone!! Oh ya, something happened in between when we were walking back to the station. I was scared by a stupid cat which was 'standing' in front of a car. I dunno it's a he or she but he bloody ngiao at me and so i bloody scared by him ==" chain reaction happened after that.. That smurfee arfie eventually got bloody scared by me.. hahahaha >.<" I thought no one was behind us but i was wrong!! Jye Din baba was walking behind us without our realization and our reaction was all captured by his eyes!! omg~~ paiseh..

Thursday: Dance practice again!!! Went sri petaling with sujulingy, qi, chu jin, chon xiang and ai ling for lunch! Headed back to vista to meet jc.. she's still cute as usual..hehehe.. she brought a lot of tomatoes from cameron.. kamsahamida *bows*
At night, had 'written conversation' with my girls again.. then sujulingy wrote all these which i think the combinations are perfectly perfect if it happens to appear in a guy:

term 1: u must dance like donghae
2. u must sing like ryeowook
3. u must be built like siwon
4. u must be smart like kyuhyun
5. u must be as man as kangin
6. u must rap like eunhyuk
7. u must drink like kibum
8. u must laugh like eeteuk
9. u must be as funny as yesung
10. u must be as huggable as shindong
11. u must protect me with martial art like hankyung
12. u must know how to play the guitar well like sungmin
my dreams*
13. u must be as dorky as heechul

<3 credits to sujulingy <3

okay, not gonna write anymore coz the blogger is now ss-ing with all her suju oppas!

我又来了噜！！

2009-06-08T00:40:00.004+08:00

有跟我联络上的朋友都知道本小姐现在在放假。
最近都超级无敌至尊乖，很爱把自己关在家里当宅女。
宅女，可不容易当。
（注: 小朋友，姐姐又练过哦，千万不要学姐姐酱--〉睡觉、吃饭、看电视、上网！！会对身体不好哦！）
宅女，就是常待在家里，足不出户，便成蜡烛公主。
宅女，就是常把自己的身体当实验品，每天把脸贴在电脑荧幕上或电视荧幕上，好让强大的辐射穿透皮肤层/眼膜，然后再进入细胞里。辐射怎么那么伟大啊？宁可牺牲小我以成全大我，务必KO掉一些细胞方可善罢甘休。哎~人家又不会颁发最伟大奖项给你，干嘛还要那么伟大？到了最后，岂不是赔了夫人又折兵吗？你的下场就只会是---〉无言的结局。。。呵呵呵呵呵~
对了，最近虽然常对电脑谈情说爱，但是在你浓我浓之际，我可没让我眼睛白受苦。。我对她们可好了，常开帅哥的照片给她们欣赏，我只能说，美丽的东西是养眼的。
要交学费了，可是懒惰去学校，因为没有动力去学校。
有好大一段时间没练武了，也有好一段时间没练舞了。
我很好奇，为什么大学没有跆拳道比赛？为什么只有那么少人？为什么要晚上七、八点才可以开始练？为什么就没有更大的场地来练习勒？我现在只想尽情地向前奔跑。
我爱跆拳道，因为它会让你很爽！他会让我的信心跑出来找我，他会让我觉得很开心，因为在这里，你无需顾虑那么多，想喊就大声喊出来，别人也不会把你当傻子看待。。因为在这里，没有男女之分，男生需要做掌上压，女生也需要做同样的东西。有练过跆拳道的人，就会明白这整个过程会有多开心和快乐。
谁来陪我玩啊？我快闷得发慌了啦！

R.e.L.i.E.v.E.d

2009-06-06T02:53:00.001+08:00

Yea, I feel much more relieved after today.. Went MV this morning with my 3,9,10 with 7 MIA (pearly 2009).. hahaha.. that pear emphasized a lot on the ‘ … … with 7 MIA’ yesterday and 7 ‘blamed’ her for that.. These are my girls, so cute even when they were fighting for something..

The LONBIA partner-in-action picked me up at 9am and headed uni straight.. She was a bit sesat and didn’t know she had to went up the ‘slope’ to reach imu==”.. But luckily she was smart enough and asked me and we were in sri petaling hehe.. So we just went back to imu by turning right, straight, right, left, straight.. Then we suddenly realized we should go to the lrt station but not the uni so we made a U-turn, straight, U-turn, left.. XD and there we were!!

Skipped the lrt and jumped to the ktm part. We decided to went in the train from the very back at tasik selatan (speaking about tasik selatan, we, the 2 noobies first thought we alight at the wrong station but we knew it was the correct one as we walked up the stairs. Noob pear said something like this:" mm, ya lar, we used this stairs in this direction de ma…” (lmao) Eh, xiao noob, correct me if i wrote something not relevant to u here..) Kk, let’s move on with the story. So this was our very very first time being able to get a place to sit in a ktm train. But I didn’t lean my back at the seat there coz I did not want my shirt to carry germs.. LOL.. Then Qi msg-ed me, telling me that she’s reaching mv soon!! So I replied her n told her that we were at salak selatan and on the way there. Few minutes later, she told me that we might be in the same train with soowei.

Once we reached the MV station, we looked for soowei as we walked near the stairs. *tada~* Soowei waved at us in front.. She memang was in the same train with us *fu-yoh qi~* This is what we usually called as ‘yuan’. Erm, basically, this is what we did when we reached MV—> 3 girls running in the direction to cinema.. ==” 3 of us really ran through the food court and the ppl there were looking at us running like… chickens?? XP After a short warm-up, we met qi finally!! *cheers* Qi looked so cute with her fringe, i’m serious, she really looked cute!!! Bought popcorn and coke. Watched ‘17 again’ by Zac Effron. This movie was funny and nice..

After the movie, we had our lunch at don’t-know-what-Penang-what-what.. Then hang around to hunt for soowei’s shoes but couldn’t get any. So we teman her to buy her favourite esprite raspberry flavour before went back to uni to get our EOS results. Qi had butterflies in her stomach when it’s almost 3pm. She asked:" cshan, do you know how to catch all my butterflies in my stomach?” I said:" yea, with my bare hands??” Poor girl, I know she was very nervous and can’t wait any longer to get her results.

And so we waited at the ktm station for like more than half an hour. In between there were 2-3 announcements made saying that the train to seremban has been delayed and cancelled due to some reasons. WTH!! The clock showed 3.45pm (results was out at 3pm). Damn it.. We then decided to take a cab rather than keep on waiting to have more and more butterflies in our stomach. Qi had too many of the species, so she asked jc to get her results on behalf of her. While we were on the way back to uni, jc called qi and told her the results. YEAP, SHE PASSED SEM 2!!! and she obtained good grades this time.

Finally, reached uni at 4 sth.. Went to AAD—> get results. NO WORRIES for Soowei n that noobie pear. I was so nervous that my hand was trembling, I tried to tear the ‘thingy’ off the result nicely to see my results but my hand just don’t have the strength to do that. Luckily Qi came and helped me.. Ling & Qi took a look at my results and let me see.. haha.. Not so bad at all!! I thought I’m gonna failed *touchwood* YES, EVERYTHING IS OVER!! Our hardwork had really paid off!! And I AM PROUD OF MY GIRLS AND ME!!

I think majority of our class get really good grades this sem. Everyone put a lot of effort and worked hard during this sem. Congratulations everyone who had made themselves to the next sem.. See u guys in july eh!!

To Ling the hot and sexay babe, CONGRATULATIONS!! For your info, their team was the champion in the inter-uni netball match. woohoo~

not-so-great masterpiece =)

2009-05-28T05:56:00.001+08:00

This is my no. X masterpiece.

Not really very nice but had tried my best using the limited tools – photoshop 7.0 only [ToT]

I want the latest photoshop version!! waaaa~

Anyway, set it as my wallpaper edi.. hehe ^.^

and got inspired after trying all the filter techniques ==”

Will create more images after this.. huahuahua..

Ngiao the Mushroom

stand by own

2009-05-25T03:29:00.005+08:00

I will face it by my own, not by others.
I will be ready for the worst outcome, just in case.
I will not depend on others along the journey
Not because I'm anti-social or what
But I have to be independent
Not to rely on my girls too much, too often
I will face it no matter what
Feel like hiding myself in one corner
Not letting anyone to find me

Perhaps
This may be the time
For me to think deeply, clearly, wisely
What is wrong with me

Perhaps
I'm just making myself nervous
Things may not be that serious
But i just over-reacted

Perhaps
I still need u guys for my entire life
Need badly and in great demand
But I will be tough
Because I have to be tough
That's all I know

I'm sorry
I don't mean to behave like this
I don't mean to make everyone around me worry about me

I'm okay
Because I have to be perfectly okay
Both physically and mentally

i hate u.

un-emo-ing

2009-05-25T02:12:00.004+08:00

Don't ask me why because i don't know why also...
Was wondering how did we actually went through our orientation week?
Looking back at the seniors' past orientation, this question keep popping out from my mind.. and so i asked myself, how did we survive throughout the whole suffering period... i have really no idea.. *sigh*

Shan's Theory of End-of-Semester (copyright reserved)

2009-05-20T22:53:00.008+08:00

The day of excitement has finally arrived!!!
Everyone had been working hard for this so-called finals in other unis including my girls!!
*claps for everyone + pats everyone's back HARDLY n REPEATEDLY*
I have actually come out with a number of conclusions, observing the changes in everyone throughout this long yet suffering period, to be specific, one month and to be highly specific, 2 weeks study break+ 5-days-exam in 2 weeks time.. ==

Below are the newly-proposed theory of study break of mine aka "Shan's Theory of End-of-Semester" (copyright reserved)
First, let's begin with the definition of study break:
1) Our study break is really a study break. This term has a few definitions based on everyone's point of view.

- "Study" is a situation where you stay in front ur notes, allowing all the facts to be diffused into your brain and making your brain saturated. "Break" simply means doing something exceeding the normal force to make you a distinctive one in comparison with other people. For example, cracking yourself.
- Study break,in other words, can be defined as a process whereby the diffusion of facts and key features into the brain across the blood-brain barrier via active diffusion, thus breaking the double bonds in your brain (coz brain becomes saturated edi). Glucose demand is high during this process.
-Study break is a changing process which involves a chain reaction of action, beginning from slacking-> realizing-> studying (1st stage: at slow pace @ 2nd stage: speed up @ 3rd stage: flip through) -> emo-ing-> crying-> studying again... It causes a physically active person to be mentally active.

Sounds logic huh?? *cheh*

2) The EOS exam will yield the following outcomes:
- Last-Paper-Syndrome as proposed by Ms. Pearly Tan
- Sleep-During-Exam Disorder as proposed by Ms. Eling
- Emotions Disorder
- Sleeping-Time Disorder
- Insomnia
- Kiasu Syndrome
- Self-abuse Syndrome
- Stress
- Panda eyes Effect
- Shortness of Breath
- Irregular heartbeat
- Irregular hormonal production (pimples)
- Blurred vision
- Weight gain / loss
- Binge Eating
- Lifeless lifestyle (dead fish syndrome)
- Limited Brain Storage Capacity
- Sot-sot-dei-ness Syndrome like me >.<" Can see the impacts of the EOS on us? You should give it a try, at least once so that you won't regret later in life. (haha.. it rhymes too..^^). K, crap too much edi.. erm, another thing to share with u guys.. I was awarded for being able to wake up early these few days by Ms Lim XQ. A big thanks and hugs to all my girls for the mental support. Thanks for motivating me, thanks for the encouragement, thanks for letting me to kacau u in the middle of the night *winks* Because of you guys, it makes a differrence!! Love ya'll <3

In conclusion, EOS drives everyone crazy, makes everyone emo, challenges everyone's patience, etc... Sem break is here but few of us still feel guilty after the exams as we are so not used to this 'sudden' changes- having lotsa time but not spending with the whole stack of notes like what we had during EOS.. 2 words, damn it!!!

中学时候得我 vs 现在的我

2009-05-03T11:18:00.003+08:00

我快蜕变成一个nerd了啦！

中学时候得我 vs 现在的我

中学时候得我:
- 看到书上密密麻麻的字，脑袋就充满睡意。。
- 成绩不及格就算了罗，反正又不会遭到退学的处分。。
- 考试了，前几晚，甚至前一晚才K书，没读完也就酱子啰--〉照上考场！
- K书不会K到早上5、6点才睡，通常1点前便去找周公聊天品茗了。。

现在的我：
- 越读越觉得精神。。惨~
- 成绩不及格绝对不能就这样算了，要正视啊！要努力啊！（因为不及格会被退学~）哎~
- 考试到了，1-2星期前就开始做准备，规划好哪天要读哪科，要读几份notes等。。。哇~
- K书会K到早上5、6点，睡几个小时但不会去找周公，wa boh éng lar~

救人哦！！！

study break!

2009-04-28T01:42:00.002+08:00

study break lor~

# damn slack in doing biochem reports and assignment.. but still, I have to finish them by thurs. Don’t worry, I AM DOING the assignment NOW while blogging heheh xD!!

# internet connection is damn lag and cacat-ed..

# im sleepy even though i had just slept from 5.38pm to 10 sth..

# have scheduled my nerding period but not following it coz of biochem!

# phobia attacked me and tensed me up.. ONLY a small number of ppl will have this phobia *sigh*

# I did it again –> self-pressuring

# luckily i didnt turn out to be emo..

# HELP!!! I can’t breathe anymore..

THE END

sorry cuz i make this blog a lifeless one.. i shall change the layout.. =)

I MISS EVERYONE OF YOU!!! I MISS 3,7,9 & 10 BADLY!! I MISS FROGGIE JC TANG!! I MISS MY GIRLS!! I MISS YOUR LAUGHTER & HUGZ!! REALLY..

erm, 1 more thing before I continue with my biochem… I would like to say..

PEAR XIAO NOOB IS SUPER HAWT!!! SO SO SO HOT HOT~ ngek ngek ngek

恋~

2009-04-23T23:56:00.001+08:00

醒醒吧，不要再这样下去了。。。

就这样算了吧好不好！

你也希望人家可以过得很好啊！

不要再对他有丝毫的留恋了

学习该怎么闭嘴退后放手忘记才是最好的方法。。。

加油啊！！！

YES I can take them all!!! doubting myself

2009-04-15T19:55:00.003+08:00

While counting down to end of sem 2 in imu, our timetable is getting more packed from day to day.. and it is killing us slowly..

IT individual assignment to be dued on wed which is tomorrow (not even start doing it yet)
Basic Biochemistry Quiz 3 and 4 on the remaining fridays
Basic Communication Final Oral Presentation (haven't started discussing also but soon to be discussed =))
Lifespan PBL session
Food culture day + 1 group report
Financial Accounting Seminar
IT test

For your info, events from no.4-6 will be held on the same day!!! waaaa~ *bang the wall hardly and repeatedly*

recent update

2009-04-10T00:39:00.004+08:00

Food culture class test 2 = DONE!!

Studied so hard for this but end up didn't know what to write for few questions, especially the health belief model!! But at least I was sort of 'well-prepared' this time so should be okay I suppose.

PBL - 1st part DONE!

Had this PBL session in the morning with jc and lee ting joining and I chaired the whole session (to be more precise, I chaired only minor part of the session because *.zip file*). First time in my life that I could speak so much (not really much also but if compared to previous PBLs the answer would be a YES!!)in front of peeps and facilitator. I did tell myself to get everyone to speak before this so that everyone can get more marks for this session and everyone did well!! To me ,

YOU ARE THE BEST K! HAVE NO FEAR IN OUR GROUP & WE LOVE YOU~ *wink*

That's all for now. Bye~
p/s: sorry for not updating my blog coz im too busy to be lazy.. does this sounds logic? i think so~ xD

im making myself clear

2009-03-21T01:05:00.003+08:00

Pics taken before are still resting in peace in my camera
and the camera is with my sis
apparently, my sis is not on this land
because she is in singapore now
and she will be back tomorrow
so no pics can be uploaded at the moment
thank you very much for your attention
simple enough?

=THE END=

stress-fun-joy

2009-03-14T19:46:00.003+08:00

Since i got nothing to blog about recently, i'll just tell u guys what did I do for this entire week...
The N&D student had a hard time this week. We have two class tests, one presentation + one report dued. It was really hectic until some of us, or perhaps all of us got tensed up. I was emo for few days, almost cried out but luckily i didn't!!! I'm weak, couldn't stand any pressure.. Always have the thought of giving up.. and then complain this and that..
After the a/c test, we have to complete reading 10 notes for food culture+ rehearse for mute drama+ finish a report on mute drama in 35 hours not counting the sleeping time.. that was the time when 2,3,7,9,10 looked like dead fishes coz everyone did not have a better quality and quantity of sleeping time.
After sacrificing our very very precious time, we are finally free!! Yoo~hoo!! Feel much more relieved after went through all these.. but actually it's the timetable coordinator's fault. He/she shouldn't sqeeze in so many heavy tasks for us to complete within a week, or to be more specific, within 3 days!!! See, i'm complaining again!!! lol~

Anyway, my girls went to have middle eastern food in sri petaling on friday. The food was nice and I personally love the sauce (can't remeber it's for which food edi...) The sauce is a bit sour and hot, yummy~~and i finished the sauce after everything on the table had been cleared by us..
Back to thursday, hehe.. saw mr. Ice Lemon Tea outside the library when we were on our way to elab 3 (formerly known as elab 4). I didn't spot him at first but Pearly did! coz i did not wear my specs mar... So, as usual, I pretend like didn't see him lor. Walked till elab3 and it was not opened yet!! haha.. i love u, Mr. Elab 3!! Then Pearly's friend, XXXXXX was standing near Elab1, so she(pearly) hahahahah...ahem....Qi was there after that and she took my hand and straight, we headed towards the escalator.. I was eating donut that time and qi asked me not to eat 1st.. lol~ so cute lar her.. but the donut was too nice to eat,especially the sugars on it!! so i finished it lor.. xD Heart was leaping skyhigh till reached to the universe liao..(not so kua zhang lar).. Everything was just coincident only lar, we wanted to drive our car down from the open carpark on the hill to imu basement.. Mr. Ice Lemon Tea and his friends stopped in front of imu and dunno discussed about what.. We walked pass them and now we were the ones walking in front of them!! *ta-da* As we had mute drama presentation that day, we brought lotsa props to uni. So I have two bags on the right and dunno what on my left.. I knew they walked behind us but thought they will keep a distance away from us.. SUDDENLY, "prak-prak"!! Guess what? My handphone was too emo and she wanted to commit suicide by jumping off from my pocket. That moment was like "SHIT! DAMN EMBARRASSING LAR NOW, WHAT SHOULD I DO? SHOULD I SAVE MY HP?" Stoned there for few seconds, deciding what to do next. Then no choice, have to pick up my hp.. i can't live without her!! So, I turned back, not daring to see him and his friends as well, took my phone and went off... but the important thing is the way my hp fell was...cool? She landed on a place where it's in front of him, and ngam ngam in the middle of the divider. cool right?! still feel embarassing whenever i think of it! very memalukan leh~ Everything happened exactly the same as those in the dramas (Hp fell->everyone at the back looking at the hp's owner picking it up->hp's owner ran away with embarrased face).. (p/s: everything was just coincidently happened..... dun perasan dun perasan it's not u.. coz i din perasan.. swt==")

Another fun thing happened in imu also, where 3,7,9 and 10 were waiting for me to drive my car out from the basement. So they were standing near the machine at the entrance of the basement. Mr. Sunny drove his car in, winded his window down to get the ticket. That pearly said:"Welcome to IMU! Please enjoy your trip!(sth like this lar)" to him.. He was the senior of other batch and we do not know each other(i mean, we know him but he doesnt know us) and pearly said that to him... walao! He then smiled and replied:" Thank you!" yor, honestly speaking, he looked good when he smiled!!! He should have smile everyday = )

Cheers! Video on my group's presentation will be posted up asap. Same goes to the pics we took in the middle eastern restaurant..You know what? pearly brought a tissue back and that tissue had nice smell but had some stains on it.. Where did she get it, I HAVE NO IDEA~ lol~ Nitez girls! Muackz!

My 20th Birthday 1

2009-03-08T01:06:00.001+08:00

Date : 20th Feb 2009

Venue: McD Carrefour, Sri Petaling

Class started at 2.45pm that day but we went to the library early in the morning (i suppose) to study for lifespan class test… So went to endah parade for lunch. Qi told us that she will be accompanying SooWei to buy some bread and so 4 of us (jc, ling, pearl and me) went to McD to get our seats. As the lunch promotion just started few days ago, so many human heads can be seen there. At first pearl and me wanted to order some foods while waiting for Qi and SooWei but when we were lining up the long queue at the counter, jc suddenly asked us to order after both of them were back. So i sat there and did nothing but just looked around..Then, ling’s received a phone call from someone and her face expression was like a bit emo. I was shocked and so asked her what had happened. She was like.. nothing lar, nevermind…Then I walked in front of McD seeking Qi and SooWei’s shadow..Suddenly, my eyes were arrested by a red shirt girl (y arrested? coz she caught my eyes..) and that was Qi!! I quickly told them but ling wanna said something to me. Haha.. ling was speechless that time, she just said,”actually hor, actually hor…..” Then a cake was moving in the air until it reached the table in front of me. They sang me birthday song and then started giving me presents!! xD

Thanks for the cake girls!!

I REALLY LOVE BOTH OF THESE.. THEY ARE IN MY WISHING LIST FOR FEW MONTHS EDI..

Soo Wei- Pearly- Me- Jc- Qi- Ling

10-3-9-2-7

And now, is the camwhoring session with our guest Jc Tang..

ling-jc-qi

sexy pearly

piggy pearly

pearly having a makeover by ling

ling the make-up pro with her 2 models PROUDLY..

Why me? Why me?! Don't look at me, pearly..please~

Pearly: hahaahahha!! now only u know how strong is my current.. it's too late!!! I've killed lotsa guys by just winking my eyes..

Ling: NoooOOOooo!!!

Me and Qi

Ling's expression is almost the same with jc's one in the following pictureS.. damn funny..

Love this random pic on the right,, Qi was in without her notice..lol~ ling was CUTE!!

jc has another bunch of hair growing out.. visit YXX NXM haircare too frequent liao.. but looked like china kid..

nice pic also.. it's very.. dunno how to say but very nice!!

this pic is nice too!! the background and the colour and brightness are just perfect here..

Venue: IMU MPH 5

5 Feb Babies.. From this picture, we can easily conclude that girls born in Feb are of this size (u can see one straight line along that 3 girls..no offend ya!) on the other hand, guys born in this month is tall and skinny (but my friend is not-skinny-at-all lor xo)

Thanks to Sing Ean (our ND batch rep) and everyone in ND..

8 Guys + 2 missing guys (georgen and jaron)

these are the number of guys that exist in ND

the rest of us = girls!! scary leh... even me also feel scary when i 1st look at the guys' pic and then this..this one 气势澎湃！！

Chee Kien on 16th Feb

Mona from Mauritius on 21st Feb

Me on 22nd Feb

Horng Ngiap on 25th Feb

from top to bottom: wen wei, jc, jia huan, chu jin, ai ling

pic on the right: jc with kar foo

time to camwhore with jc again!!! wen wei on the left and me on the right.. xp

left: Xiu Qi in the house yo! BF in the house yo!

right: pearly in the sea yo, no one in the sea yo! coz no one wants to be in the sea... lol~

left: ling kena abused by her peeps

right: once again, a nice pic!! Soo Wei looked pretty in this pic!! but jc looked sweet also.. haha..

jc, sweet or not?? i say u are sweet leh.. should be happy lor right?

To My Lovely and Sweet Girls,

Thanks for the celebration as well as the pendrive and the 'board'! I wrapped it with the cover seal and planned to hang it on the wall.. Feel sweet whenever I look at that 'board'. A big HUGZ + KISS to you girls.. Muackz Muackz Muackz!! Thanks for being with me when I was in trouble but now I know whom should I turn to... and the answer is .. tada~ U-Know-Who!! XD You guys just brighten up my day!! May our friendship lasts till the end of our lives!! <3<3<3<3<3

Loves, Chee Shan

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To everyone in N&D:

Thanks for buying the cakes for the feb babies.. Thanks for singing us birthday song.. Glad to have you guys as my coursemates!! love ya'll~

trip to korea

2009-03-06T21:32:00.000+08:00

First of all, due to the blogger's laziness, she won't be arranging all the pics.. So, the pics are displayed randomly...
Ready? Here we go! (It's really long..sigh)

chicken in geinseng soup
took this in front of a beauty shop.. that person is cute right?

太王四神记scene

same setting as the one above

frozen river.. cool right? xD

my pose looks weird..

love this pic.. knew her during this trip.. she's a nice and sweet girl!

Korea Ice-cream!! it tastes like flavoured dried ice

traditional costume

me n sis

dad n me

DIY kimchi.. victory!!

ski-ing.. lol~

im the only one in my family who went ski-ing..=="

something like our steamboat here.. super tasty!! woohoo~

hair is messy, pai seh..

took this near the winter sonata scene

look like a photo frame huh??

ate this in Korea.. it's actually the pupa of 蚕虫..

tastes like protein..

behind was the church for dont know which korean drama edi..

jeju island

random but looked-stupid-pose

his english name is chaiyin.. 19yrs old, korean, very cute..lol~

kiddy set at the airplane.. so nice..

ate this bowl of udonon the last day b4 we headed to the Incheon airport.. it's NICE AGAIN!! a bit spicy coz i added a lot of chilli powder in..

this was outside a shopping complex.. quite unique..

along the street..

this is where we went for spa and hot spring.. everyone has to be naked here! and i did see lotsa '18SX things'.. hoho~ first time eh..

太王四神记

same setting

this is their summon.. shape is like a receipt.. not like ours one.. sigh~

7-11

in front of a shopping complex but inside was like sg wang(not many spaces to walk..)

pork chop+rice+noodles

the pork chop was yummy!! *thumbs up*

blackie clapping hand~

this is the mixture of lion and tiger..

at the entrance of everland

starbucks coffee!! they have this in their family mart..

my sis's new bear.. did this out of boredom.. haha!!

outside the hotel.. snow was all over the cars..

that long path was the place where i ski-ed in the afternoon..

they went to this place when i went ski-ing..

神奇之路

龙头岩

18sx

ugly monalisa.. yuckzz!

this bear was huge.

world most expensive bear by LV

the 'goong' bears!! love their outfit weh~

WEDDING BEAR

兵马俑,erm, i mean..兵熊俑

bear version of marilyn monroe.. damn... disgusting...

teddy bear museum

outside the palace of ex-prime minister

like this photo.. it looks so professional.. >.o

济州岛日出峰

the fellow standing next to me looked like wall E huh?
citizens in jeju believes in 土地公和土地婆

artificial rainbow made by me!!

That's all.. now left my bday one only.. phew~ till then XD muackz~

怎么了，别问我噢，说好的幸福呢？

2009-03-04T01:18:00.005+08:00

一个温暖的拥抱，就足以让我的心彻彻底底的融化；

因为在这花花绿绿的都市里生活了二十年，

每个人都学会武装自己，

把所有好的，不好的情绪都压抑在心里，

这里的每一个人，都学会自私，

不愿把自己的事情说出来；

这里的每一个人，都会变得好胜，得失心重，

不敢把自己最脆弱的部分表现出来。。

可是，我已经压抑了好久，

我快受不了了！！！

就是她的一个拥抱，让我的眼泪情不自禁地划过脸颊。。。

所以，不要抱我，不然，我会。。。

哭出来的！！！

不要我哭也行，要让我觉得那是属于安慰的抱，但是这种高境界的抱法，只有悟性极高的人才可参透出个中道理啊！阿弥陀佛。。

哇哈，离校那么多年了还可以文思泉涌，善哉善哉啊！

我就是这样，sot sot地过了一年又一年。。。

爽爽就一天内post几篇帖子，emo就不post。。厉害勒？

废话讲完，别了各位，就让咱们明日再相逢吧！
Nitez girls..

announcement and lame joke

2009-03-04T00:49:00.002+08:00

Pics regarding my cny trip to korea and also my birthday celebration is on the progress...
Can finish earlier but due to that blogger image upload system, u guys have to wait for a period of time.. Learn to be patient coz you'll be patient for whatever u do in the future..lol~

Created this lame joke last week...(strictly for IMU N&D student only!!)
If you are in trouble, which lecturer should you call first?? Below are the options:
1) Mr. Zahari from IT
2) Dr.Winnie from N&D
3) Mr. Hanif from Financial Accounting
4) Dr. Tony from N&D

So.... the answer is.....

C) Mr. Hanif

Why?? It's because when you are in trouble, you need help... When you need help, you must say, HANIF, HELMI(help me!!!!)

Lame enough? I suppose some of you will kena zha dou.. hahaha..
Be happy!!!

Anyway, did 'sth' to Qi.. and she's smart coz she added 'me'.. Eling sure understand this sentence right???
LOVE EVERYONE OF YOU DEEPLY!!! MUACKZ! <3

我现在很不爽啊！！

2009-02-24T18:06:00.002+08:00

Acer really SuX!!!
Suddenly this one got problem..
then suddenly that one got problem..
damn it!

cousins i hate the most..

2009-02-06T00:59:00.002+08:00

Honestly speaking, I DON'T LIKE MY COUSINS!! They just live a few rows in front of my house.. My uncle and aunty over-pampered them until those basic manners couldn't be seen on them!! Really lor, they used to be okay with us when they were small... but now they are teenagers... they(especially the 2nd one) always tell lies to their parent.. (telling parent that he's going to his friend's house but the actual motive of outing was to cyber cafe..) and he doesn't show any respect to the elderly lor.. he came to my house but never call my father.. once he came in the 1st thing he did was to take my psp.. damn him man.. but i did not give him any response when he asked me to give him the psp..lol~then he told her mum that the acer laptop price has decreased, some sort of hinting her mum to buy for him i suppose.. (p/s: he is only form 2 leh! want laptop for what? play game lar...wth! waste money only) what also want, go earn money urself lar! dont always ask from ur parents joker...

And then right, my uncle damn like to show off man.. when i was surfing the net, i saw 3 GOLD rings on his fingers, 1 GOLD bracelet around his wrist, and then 2 BIG and GOLD 'chain' around his neck!! walao ... damn GOLD wei... even my dad also dont dare to put on those GOLD-ish thingy on his hand or neck man..becoz my dad is not rich hahahahha....

Haiz, so my conclusion is, My house and I welcome everyone but not this uncle's family and 'bad-luck god lor ... *hang**hang**hang*~

ChEe ShAn is back from KOREA!!!

2009-02-03T18:54:00.003+08:00

I'M BACK MY DEAR FRENZ!!! long time no blog, so... very lazy to blog now.... another reason, wanna sleep, so... dont feel like blogging now... third reason, havent uploaded my photos, so... blog next time!! im here just to tell u guys that Im back in Malaysia!! yeah~

hoo~ hoo~ hoo~

2009-01-10T01:57:00.002+08:00

hey my dear frenz.. im here again! it's been 1 month since i posted up my previous post. Reasons are always the same --> LAZY + TIRED = no mood to blog..
Oh ya, had my organic chem resit paper on 2nd jan and went to imu to get my results today.. Before that qi called me, asking me whether reached uni or not. Then I asked her,"so how's ur result? ok ar?" I thought she'll say that she passed..Tak sangka she waited for a few seconds and answered me, "nope, not ok ar" I was like "die liao lor, qi failed edi then what about me?" So I quickly changed to other person like jessie...lol~ bla bla bla...
I was s0 scared before getting my result back... once i got back the result, immediately, i opened it and checked.. ORGANIC CHEM: C (P).. walao, i passed!! woo hoo~ damn syok!
anyhow, congratz to qi and jessie and others who had passed their resit.. sry, too tired to blog summore edi, gotta work full tmr... chiao~
p/s: my thanksgiving speech will be given later but not now... hahahahahah~ bye!
today is my colleague's birthday.. happy birthday dai lou!!

i NEED to kill my brain cells again! they wont undergo apoptosis coz i'll be the one who is killing them..

2008-12-07T00:02:00.004+08:00

Got my results yesterday. Failed organic chemistry. This is within my expectation after the paper. Luckily, i did not failed general chemistry nor human physio which need u to study like a total nerd. Organic chem notes are lesser than those two subjects above but still, need lotsa memorising work.. oh, so..... shitty... how am i gonna memorise all the reactions? To that pearly hor, the reactions needed to be fused into my brain are all under alkenes and alkynes is it?
Qi were cute yesterday when we went to receive our results. She helped me to open my exam results slip coz I did not dare to see how bad I did. When she opened, i heard "ee-hee (laughing)".. She turned to me and said, chee shan ur results are same as mine! haha.. so so so cute... and while we were in e-lab 3, she suddenly said this, luckily it's only a 2-hour paper.. I then laughed... really funny and i kinda kena zha dou...
then i went back to work again... end of my story.
oh by the way, congratzz to soo wei and that pearly hor for passing their EOS! That pearly really very geng + smart wan lor... skipped human physio class test still can get the highest ranking.. Not like me, gone thru 2 organic chem class tests but couldnt pass that... what a shame.. lol~
ok, i'll study hard for the resit... no new year celebration for me as the resit exam will be on 2nd jan 2009.. walao.. potong stim like dont know what exothermic hell only... I-AM-TIRED...
in conclusion, im still satisfied with my overall results.. consider ok lar rite...

2008-12-05T00:41:00.002+08:00

eos exam results is gonna be released today!!
but i dont feel like talking about it.. it spoils my mood..

let's talk about these 4 days working in taipan EYS. Frankly speaking, it's very tough to work in this branch compared to the summit branch. Lactic acid was over secreted in my muscles. Thigh got swollen a bit and my foot was damn pain after coming back from work. I have to stand for long hours here.. last time was better.. at least can sit longer.. here u have to do lotsa things. Prices for all the promotion items are hard to remember.. because the items are all around the shop and it's hard to find the promotion prices sticked on the item.. but the seniors here are experienced.. they can communicate with their customers very well.. mandarin, chinese, or even english is not a problem here.. i feel very 'zi bei', i cant speak cantonese and english as fluent as them, i cant give the customers what they want.. i dont understand their needs... hmm, 50% is the customer's fault lar actually.. he cant speak cantonese well and his wife knows english only.. he told me wanna by something to cook sea cucumber and i thought he wanna use those herbs to stew it.. i was like... blank! got such thing one meh? use herbs to stew sea cucumber.. then i asked my senior to serve them. My senior damn geng, understands what he's trying to say.. and actually i just have to say "oyster, mushroom, scallops and fish maw" .. cheh, this one i know lar... the customer dunno how to express only what.. I NEED TO WORK HARD AND LEARN AS MUCH THINGS I COULD FROM THEM this time, coz i wanna be someone whom they will be proud of where i can communicate with the customers and so on..
chiao, gotta sleep now.. working morning shift 2day (after 12am)..

happy birthday shin yi!

2008-11-30T22:50:00.006+08:00

= H.A.P.P.Y B.I.R.T.H.D.A.Y M.Y D.E.A.R =

FRIENDS FOREVER

WISH U TO BE LOVED BY SOMEONE U LOVE ALWAYS

WE KNEW EACH OTHER SINCE PRIMARY 6

U WERE SMALL-SIZED AND SKINNY

WE WEREN'T SO CLOSE AFTER ALL

BUT

THINGS CHANGED

WHEN WE STUDIED AT THE SAME SECONDARY SCHOOL

WE USED TO HAVE ADD MATHS AND A FEW LESSONS OF PHYSICS TUITIONS WITH BANANA

WE USED TO PLAY UNDER THE TABLE WHILE BANANA WAS TEACHING

THAT WAS MY HAPPIEST MOMENT

SLOWLY,

U STARTED TO GROW UP

NOW AS TALL AS I AM

OR MAYBE TALLER THAN ME

U CHANGED FROM A SMALL GIRL TO A PRETTY AND CUTE GIRL

AFTER THAT

WE STUDIED IN THE SAME COLLEGE AGAIN

I CAN STILL REMEMBER

THOSE DAYS WHERE U WAITED FOR ME OUTSIDE MY CLASSROOM

EVERYDAY...

AND NOW,

WE ARE IN DIFFERENT UNIVERSITY

CHASING AFTER OUR DREAMS STEP BY STEP

I WOULD LIKE TO WISH U ALL THE BEST IN UR STUDIES

ALL THE BEST IN UR LOVE LIFE

ALL THE BEST IN UR CARRIER IN THE FUTURE!

LOVE YOU~ <3

AGAIN

HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!!

I'm working very very very soon, my friend!

2008-11-30T17:45:00.003+08:00

Dear all, I'm gonna work from tomorrow onwards until the very first day of CNY!
Still, I'll be working for the same company but different branch (in taipan)..
I will work hard for the sake of $$..
It's gonna be a little bit tiring in january especially when uni reopens for 2 weeks.. I'm always telling myself now, just tahan for that 2 weeks and everything will be fine.. I survived during the one week EOS exam, i suppose i still manage to work while studying GUA....As the chinese proverb says that "the bridge will become straight when the ship reaches" hehe.. I'm pro in direct translation.. ok, ciao!
By the way, iPod is finally in my hand now! Due to this reason and other personal reason, I need to work to earn some cash. Love u guys! muackz!

leave me alone for a while and I'll be alright after that..

2008-11-26T01:15:00.006+08:00

I know I did a few things today but at least i did okay!
Don't say as if I never do anything and just play-eat-watch tv the whole day..
I'm no longer a kid, I'm already 19, I know what should I do and what am I supposed to do.
I have my own plan. I'll cook something when I'm hungry. I know when should I wash the clothes. I really know. I did whatever you asked me to do but turned up to be scolded by you. You asked me to heat the soup for another 1 hour. I heated it in the afternoon and re-heated it at 6pm before you come back. But what did I get? You said that I never heat the soup at all! what the heck! I have to admit that I really forgot to iron my clothes but don't say that I never do whatever you want me to do! I know I'm on holiday now, so I'll take up some responsibilities to do some house chores. I washed the plates and stuffs, cleaned my room, cooked rice, collected clothes which were under the sun.. I never did those few years ago due to laziness but now, at least I'm willing to do okay! You ignored everything I did, you did not see the efforts I've put in.. at all...
Is it if I clean up the whole house only you'll see my efforts?

狗咬吕洞宾,不识好人心!
我有做的你没看到, 算了!
我快成年了, 大部分事情我心里有数, 也自有分寸!
不要老是说我什么都不做好吗?
我不是说长大了,翅膀就硬了,我只是觉得到了这个年纪,我知道什么事情要在什么时候做 .
你交代的事情我都有用心去做 , 遗憾的是, 你看不到我的用心和付出...
唉,谁叫平凡人皆共同拥有同一种毛病,只会不断扩大别人的缺点, 并不会注意某人的优点呢?
我的用心不但得不到你的赞赏,反而被你说得一无是处,我-是-真-的-好-灰-心 ,心里也觉得委屈.
你这样只会疏远彼此之间的距离 .
眼泪终于撑不住了,一滴一滴地滑过脸颊,真的好久没哭了...让我发泄一下,好吗?

sorry, this is just an emo post.

Do u agree?

2008-11-26T00:58:00.002+08:00

"PARENTS ARE ALWAYS THE RIGHT ONES EVEN THOUGH THEY ARE WRONG"

Do you agree with the statement above?

I personally don't think so. It's very wrong...

rojak combination of EOS + shopping + happy birthday !!!

2008-11-23T02:08:00.008+08:00

Finally, EOS has ended!! We really did survived after this entire tiring+stressful week.. phew~ but guess gonna re-sit for some papers... haiz.. just did badly in both gen chem and org chem.. i hate chem..now and forever!! Hate all those long reactions.. anyhow, will enjoy my holz for few weeks before being a total nerd again! what a sad thing...

See, u can see the difference.. i can stay up until this late when there's no exam... before and during exam, we had these weird act as we had already fully tensed up..

pearly the betty

xiuqi

eeling

soowei

and lastly, me...

Oops, sorry for not warning those we have heart attack and pregnant mothers at the beginning... my fault...

Erm, oh yea, went to the summit this afternoon with sis to buy her external HDD.. and i was there for the sake of accompanying her.. but i ended up buying more and more things than my sis.. Let's see, I bought one lip balm in the morning, then in the afternoon was 2 CDs + kubik's cube... bought kubik's cube coz it looks fun to play with when it's in eeling's hand... also, it's an alternative way to fill ur free time up while sharpen ur mind... one stone kills two birds and one lift two get man... hoho.. i was looking for 萧闳仁's CD at the popular bookstore but accidentally saw these 2 CDs, so in one shot, i bought these 2 CDs by using the excuse that these Cds should be bought as a reward for me for being so hardworking during these 3 weeks... hahaha... N they can act as my de-stress agent after EOS exam... oh, another reason is because most of the recent albums are having 20% discount.. so i can get 2 Cds at a time for about the price of one non-discounted CD....(the 2nd one was much cheaper than the first one).. anyway, 萧闳仁 is too shy to see me and so he hid at somewhere else which i couldn't find even a bulu roma of his.. so i'll buy it another day using the same 'REASONS'.. lol~ I have to recommend all of u here to listen to his album... his musics are really great and he's a talented composer... highly recommended!!!

these were the items i bought today.. super contended!! those songs in 潘裕文's EP is nice to listen to when u r down.. it's ori price is rm19.90 which i think is quite worth it.. it has 4 songs in it..

lastly ( i always use this word in exam coz cant think of other non-primary-standard sequence connectors most of the time) and most importantly, I would like to wish my sayang quek yi lian happy birthday!! she is a genius duck, frankly speaking...

on 22nd feb

on 22nd march

on 29th sept

any changes on her? she's as cute as last time... lol~ HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL!! even though it's 2 days late since now is 3.40am... i'll love u forever!! muackzz! stay healthy so that i can eat duck's brain in the future..

okay, it's time to say bye-bye to everyone here.... good nitez~

important but no so important news...

2008-11-16T01:19:00.004+08:00

It's 1.20am now and I'm in my room studying... To keep me awake so that i can read more lect notes, I drank essence of chicken.... lol... and also, there's a teapot containing chinese tea in front of me... but for ur info, drinking chinese tea or any kind of tea and coffee after essence of chicken will just cancel off the effect of chicken essence.. so, since i have had chinese tea b4 having chicken essence, I will continue with my tea because although the effectiveness of chicken essence had been minimised, the tea leaves, which contains some caffeine can still keep me in exciting state... in other words, the natural-caffeine-containing tea leaves will act as the energy to promote me to a higher energy level... Same principal as in the physics and chemistry, if i have insufficient energy, i'll be dropping to the ground state again and thus giving off photons (as for my case, those photons refer to zzz aka sleeping signal..) Hence, the amount of tea I have is directly proportional to the duration of staying awake. As the amount of tea I have increases, the duration of staying awake increases as well. Oh ya, there's another one popping out from my brain... the amount of tea I have is directly proportional to the number of times of toilet visit..
Wow, never expect I could write such things... hahaha.. good... it's physics and part of chemistry... cool... im good at crapping you know....
Erm, the main purpose I'm here is to inform u guys that I won't be blogging for one week from tomorrow onwards until friday... see ya! gotta date with my lect notes edi...

TT

2008-11-11T22:29:00.003+08:00

I HATE MYSELF!

I REALLY DON'T KNOW WHAT SHOULD I DO NOW...

~ S.H.I.T ~

老娘现在很不爽！

2008-11-06T22:07:00.002+08:00

原以为要开始读书了，怎知手又痒了，去看看老友的部落格(因为有好一段时间没跟她聊了，想了解现况。。)
不click下面的comments还没那么气，一click看了所有留言就超堵烂！妈的！这是我看到的留言(皆同一个人所为)。

1) Anonymous said...
有一种爱叫放手...也有一种叫依然是朋友...何必执著于一个不爱你的人呢？？要知道，不是你的，就不是你的，强求是没用的...本人觉得，你是过分执著，把别人对你的关心看成对你的爱，是否当时对方也一样爱你呢？？未确定之前就这么的爱对方，到后来受伤的是你自己...
November 1, 2008 11:52 PM

2) Anonymous said...
Got 1 situation also called purely just like the person..if the person's care can be misunderstood to be a lover's care, that's not purely misunderstood, it's that person giving that feeling themselves then retreat suddenly.Sometimes..some people are different, not everybody's kind of love is same.Letting go can't be everyone's option,not everyone can be friends in the end..not everybody as great as that..but great in other perspectives..even though didn't let go,still there for that person.
November 2, 2008 12:17 PM

3) Anonymous said...
曾经，有人告诉我：我对待朋友的方式，尤其是对待异性，很容易让对方误会我是喜欢对方的。当时，我不相信。但是，现在不由得我不信。先后有了几个例子，都是因为误会了我对他们是有意的。这是个人习惯，本人没办法改变。曾经，有人要求我做件事。但我不懂得拒绝，反倒让对方误会了。拒绝是残酷的，善意的敷衍，反变成了恶意的欺骗。爱是自私的，朋友却是宽容的。下次我学会了拒绝。曾经，我也有过同样的遭遇。喜欢的人不喜欢我。我也试过，分手后不到一个星期，他就和自己最要好的朋友在一起，而我还得跟他同班，这种感觉你试过吗？别以为自己是最惨的，很多人比你，比我还更惨！！！
November 2, 2008 4:45 PM

全部都是anonymous, 而且每一篇都有含义，妈的我真的越看越生气！敢留言却不敢留下名来，真的如我那老友说的，像个懦夫！过后那“个”懦夫终于献上“大名”留下留言。

leong870209 said...
我相信我是誰，你也很清楚了。我原不想說那么多的。但是我不想被人誤會，朋友都罵我傻，爲什麽還要回復。但是這是個人固執的緣故吧。前兩個comment都在暗示些東西，也是你誤會的東西，嘗試明白吧。我也不想多說，不然會被認爲是懦夫。~良~
November 3, 2008 6:38 PM

还叫“~良~” 勒，干脆改名吧，“恶劣”还挺适合你的。人家已经祝福你们了，还要去猛踩人家的地雷，去和你的爱人恩爱去吧！死人头、臭男生！呸！

LALALALALALALA (IT'S NOT ALA NOR LA BUT LA~LA~LA~)

2008-11-04T01:12:00.002+08:00

Alright, start counting down for EOS exam (for those who doesn't know what EOS is, it's End-Of-Semester Exam..)
Went to IMU this afternoon.. and i thought it would be very fast as i was there to hand in the human nutrition seminar 'report'. Reached there at around 12.15pm then met jia ru (my seminar partner) at E-Lab 3. Went downstairs to see Dr. Tony for final correction. However, he was out for lunch! wth man.. and we've to wait for him until 2.10pm! walao-eh.. I just sat in e-lab 3 and talked to starr... she was emo that time coz according to her, her laptop commited suicide and she had to on9 at the campus.. what a pity.. Then talked to sharon and she said that she'll just hand her report staright to Pn. Normah. I wanted to do the same thing like her but....................... hehe.. anyway, kar foo's slacks had been stolen.. another sad news happened in N&D students again on the same day..
Became a little bit emo after that due to that long waiting + suffering hours.. (affected by starr perhaps.. no idea.. ) btw, managed to see Dr. Tony at 2.10pm and one of the slides in our report need to be corrected... so went to print out the edited slides in library but the PCounter sot edi.. what to do? haiz... we just went to pay rm1 at the cashier counter and then printed the slides at ICT helpdesk... It was already 3.15pm when we submitted the report... haiz.. anyway, human nutrition is over ( i mean.. for the student seminar lar)... 2 more tasks waiting for me to be completed by wednesday, which both are related to professionalism and human nutrition.. one is to write a diary, another one is the report for professionalism...
Scheduled my revision time just now and it turned out to be very packed if i wanted to complete the readings for the 4 heavy subjects and 1 not-so-heavy-but-need-a-lot-of-memorising-skill subject... Really got tensed up when it comes to exam, especially when you are an IMU student.. sounds no fake.. we had exam every week since end of august if not mistaken till now including 2-3 weeks where there is no exam... and now it's time to study nerd-ly for less than 2 weeks... oh ya, forgot to mention, got back my stats results!! haha.. didn't expect to get that grade (i was told that there are more than 10 failures in N&D so i expect im one of them.. but.. touchwood lar...phew~)
Nowadays I dont really tell my parents (my mum in specific) my results.. I got the result and then just keep quiet for a few days... lol.. This wasn't me... When I was in high school 2-6 years back as well as in primary school, I'll tell my mum directly about my results whenever i got them even though the results were bad. It's not because my results are poor now but i would just keep my mouth shut until i feel like telling her.. oh, i know why edi, maybe it's because she's getting busier and busier after the maid has gone back to her indo. okay, i know it's very long.. actually wanted to write more but gotta study edi.. it's 2.38am now.. 3 more notes to be read as per scheduled... lol... hopefully i can follow the schedule i made this time... see ya! love everyone of you!

annyong hasaeyo~~ yo~ check it out YO~!

2008-10-31T23:50:00.004+08:00

Well, human nutrition class test 2 is over! but not officially over yet.. damn.. Since today will be the last day of sem 1, we 'walked' around the campus until 12 sth after the test which ended at 10am... Dr. Winnie told us that stats test results were out. Btw, I did not collect the results, so did 3-7-9-10. Wanted to go back at first but that pearly wanna de-stress (she memang needs it bcoz she slept at 4.30am before the day of class test). Anyhow, we ended up taking train to mid valley. Erm, basically pearly and I had discovered a shorter path to the over-head bridge (IT WAS FIRST DISCOVERED BY MISS LIM XQ AND MISS YEOH EL..genius weh)

Reached MV at around 1pm and bought movie tickets. We had 1++ hour to spend before the movie. So, we went to sushi king and ate a lot of things. oOooohh.. syok!! Then, movie time!! Watched 'High School Musical 3'... Just feel that Troy and Gabriella are sweet couples.. pearly and I had the same 'thought' during the movie... hehehe...

Okay, after the movie, hang around MV for 20 mins++ again... Then went back to imu to get our cars.

Guess what, I then went with sis to summit to buy external hard disk drive and also cooler pad. haha.. purse was bleeding terribly. Bought a 320G ext HDD + casing of good quality for few hundreds msian ringgit. But still, it's worth it .... for me lar.....

the portable cooler pad

ext HDD =)

At night, have to ffk my girls in secondary school.. They went to BR to have ice-cream. Anyway, they came to my house for discussion (where to go in dec, main focus was on pangkor island)after enjoying their dessert. Bla bla bla, talk and crap until 11.30pm and we had came out with a conclusion: No islands.. and we just explore some interesting places around subang...haha.. I proposed Kuala Selangor to be our destination before they leave bcoz there are fireflies to be seen, seafood as well as karaoke.. ( really suit our condition lor) I'm a bit determined to go there edi.. lol~

tired and speechless...

2008-10-24T23:26:00.003+08:00

yo yo fren! Had organic chem test 2 today. Basically, I didn't know how to do. In other words, I'm DOOMED to hell.. The 1st page was all shit.. I didn't know them but they just act friendly to me. Anyway, I know that Im going to fail for this subject. So, dont bother...

Oh ya, Im very very glad that I survived throughout this tiring week!! woo-hoo!! For your information, I had my MUET speaking test on tuesday, student seminar for professionalism in N & D on wednesday, then another student seminar again for principles of human nutrition on thursday, and lastly, organic chem test 2 on friday... these 2 weeks are gonna be extremely busy for us, the N&D students.. WE ARE ALSO BUSY WITH OUR MODULE OKAY BUT WE ARE GOOD AND CONSIDERATE ENOUGH NOT TO COMPLAIN TO PROF. PETER POOK, UNLIKE THOSE HEALTH SCIENCES PEOPLE. DON'T THINK THAT ONLY YOUR PROGRAMME MODULE IS HEAVY LAR IDIOT! IF YOU THINK THAT THE MODULE IS HEAVY FOR YOU THEN TRANSFER TO ANOTHER PROGRAMME LAR, BUT NOT TO N&D!! We went through this whole hectic and busy week ler.. I know I'm very small gas here.. lol~

Alright, to everyone here.. who is free between 5-8pm on the 7th november (friday)? Tell me okay! MUST!! hehe..

Next week will be the last week of sem 1. So the principles of human nutrition class test 2 will be held on friday. That would be a hard one as there are 17 lecture notes to be read on (someone told me this but don't know whether the figure is correct or not).. BURNING THE MIDNIGHT OIL IS BAD FOR HEALTH, we knew this long time ago but still, most of us are practising it..
Before the test we have to prepare for the general chem poster.. My group has not pasted anything on our board yet and I guess we are the only group who havent done with the pasting job... nvm, we are doing it one shot tomorrow!

Erm, we had a date with Prof Peter this afternoon. And our goal is to get at least grade B for every subject in the coming EOS (end-of-semester) exam which is 3 weeks later.. shit lor.. I wanted to raise my hand when he asked how many people wanna score grade C and above.. however, no one raised his/her hand.. So, Prof Peter had came into conclusion by stating everyone from different programme must get at least grade B forevery subject.. wth.. damn stress..

okay, there are lots more to talk about but the blogger is feeling tired right now because she was one of the midnight oil burners yesterday but mini burner only lar.. hahaha!! THANKS TO QI AND LING FOR YOUR CEREALS BAR... bye! MUACKZzZ!!

看到最后会被榨到的一贴~

2008-10-18T01:47:00.006+08:00

偌大的屋子在今晚显得格外寂静。。。
妈到医院照顾姐去了，
所以，这屋子就只剩下我和我老豆“相依为命”。。
唉~
家里人数在不断地减少当中。。。
从刚开始的5人，到6人(佣人)，然后再到4人，现在又减少至2人，哇塞！是厉害的咯(LIM，2008)！哈哈哈！
结果如此：家里人数还会持续地有所变动。As there are no hypotheses stated, therefore, no null and alternative hypothesis to be rejected nor accepted. Thank you..

*哔哔哔哔哔*
嘿嘿，大家跟我一起这样唱和做！
榨到的站左边，没被榨到的站右边，觉得榨到但有好像没被榨到的站中间！
右手举起来，左手举起来，右手放下来啊，左手不要放，有被榨到的啊，左手不要放下来。。
*毕毕毕毕毕* (此“毕”并非那“哔”，因为唱完了一首歌就等于完毕！)

只要你、你，抑或是你！只要你的梦想是要当音乐人，那跟着我的TEMPO就准没错的啦！因为。。。一边唱着我的歌，一边随着我的指示做，你就有可能成为一名出色的。。。“唱作人”。。呵呵呵~

HaPPy BiRtHDaY JesSie TanG

2008-10-18T01:38:00.002+08:00

happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you

okay.. there are 19 lines of 'happy birthday to you' above which stand for 19 years old ya! so be a good and cute duck.. coz CUTE duck won't be killed by the roast duck man.. hehe.. Anyway, be happy! enjoy your duck life to the max!
p/s: all the 19 lines i typed them word by word wan ler.. i did not copy and paste ya! haha..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO PEARLY TAN!!!

2008-10-12T01:21:00.003+08:00

XX, Jalan XXX !!/##,
4XXX0, XXX XXXXXX JAYA,
SELANGOR.
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Pearly Tan
XX, Jalan XXX !@/@@,
4XXX0, XXX XXXXXX JAYA,
SELANGOR. 12/10/2008

Dear Miss,

Re: HAPPY BIRTHDAY
Referring to the subject above, I, CCS, ND08072XXXX would like to have your attention. Although it's one hour after ur birthday but still, I would like to wish u HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY!!

2. May all your wishes come true this year or maybe until October next year (as there are only 2 months left for the year 2008). haha.. Take care of yourself and most importantly, take good care of your leg. Do you know why? It's because without your leg, you couldn't travel from one place to another everyday. Erm, the 'leg' I'm mentioning refers to 'car key' ya (leg= kaki= car key)!! yea, it's l-a-m-e ==''' Oh, another lame joke here, take care of one leg only, not two.. If not you'll be very cham..why?? Because one leg= kaki right? If you look after both legs then the 'formula' will be like this... 2 legs= kakis.. So as a result, no more leg could be seen!! Haiz...

3. Hopefully you are happy with the presents... lol... And also the surprise for you at the open car park.. Hmm, just be happy everytime.. =)

4. That's all for this letter. I'm showing you the proper format of writing a formal letter. You are welcomed to refer to this post whenever you need it next time for your love letter.. haha.. Your happiness is kindly appreciated. Thank you very much!

Yours truly,
Chee Shan

my dreams...

2008-10-06T22:15:00.003+08:00

I dreamt of 2 things in these two days(sat and sun). The first one is a funny one and then the second one is weird.. Just post it here even though I've told my so called 'KL gang' (3-7-9-10).

The first dream that I had was like this:

I was walking at a garden (Bukit Jalil garden), erm.. it's a park, not garden... lol... there are lotsa grassy area and while I was walking, I saw some people having picnic at the grassy area. *tada* Guess who did I see? HAha.. I saw one guy and one girl. And the most interesting part comes... That girl was 'sitting' on the guy's stomach, trying very very hard to open that guy's shirt. That guy was screaming and said 'no! no! no!' while shaking his head. He was 'mentally raped' by that girl.. haha.. After that my dad knocked my door and woke me up.. Haiz.. What a waste.. but nvm, I have good imagination, so I shall continue the story... That guy was raped by that girl and he was sobbing like what we see from those dramas.. And the girl tells him, "don't worry, my little sweetheart, I'll be responsible for it... what the hell... 3-7-9-10, can u guys imagine that?? that's super duper funny wei.

The second one not as interesting as the first one. It was about someone I knew not long ago in my dream(my imaginary friend said by qi). He looks like someone. One day I asked him, "Is XXXXXX your brother?"

"Yup!" He replied..

BUTT, it's weird. Because his brother is a banana, very tall and thin. And my imaginary friend is short, thin and speaks fluent mandarin! Both of them have the same cute little eyes lar. Lol..

After i dreamt of these incidents right, i met those who were in my dream on the day itself!! I 've never experienced it before.. That's so cool.. When I told the dream I had to soo wei, she told me that if we tell either one of the ppl in our dream, the dream will eventually comes true.. 1 minute later.... I told soo wei, "if like that I MUST tell either that guy or that girl, so they can stay together forever edi.." Soo wei laughed... lol..

Oh ya, poor eeling today.. he saw her friend but they keep on 擦肩而过 for at least 6 times!! Im quite lucky today lor.. At first I thought that it's enough to just see him.. and I was trying to look for his lucky girl whom i dont know who the girl is.. Then saw a girl talking to him while he was stepping down the stairs in LT. So the first thing that comes into my mind was .. hmm, that's her! Then I just faced my friend and my back was facing him. When he was about to go out from LT, suddenly he turned his head and smiled to me! oh my goodness... unbelieveable man.. We had eye contact for 2-3 seconds.. wow, and I saw electric current flowing from his eyes.. the 2-3 seconds seemed to be very long for me ler.. It was like.. everything stops during that few seconds!! walao... qi and eeling saw that too! but don't care lar.. I admit that I am perasan.. After that we discussed about that and I remembered something! The moment when we have eye contact was like one of the scene in 'you're my destiny' aka ming zhong zhu ding wo ai ni(in chinese) where strong electric current flows from Anson's eyes to Qing Xia's(Xin Yi's eldest sister) eyes.. That scene was extremely funny..
OK, that's all.. Just wanna share these craps with you guys.. Thanks for wasting your precious time with me. THANK YOU! muackzz~ =)

ss-ness

2008-10-03T23:46:00.002+08:00

walao.. wanted to blog about this yesterday but i don't want it to be lengthy (3 posts in a day).. so tahan until now..
went to one of the BPharm's guy (2007) blog and see... then suddenly feel like reading the comments he got from all his friends.. and then... haha.. I saw something that made me ss.. Coz i commented previously on his blog post and beyond my expectation, he replied!! omg... hahahahhahahahhahaha.. happy as if im in the haven at that time... ah,whatever..
in conclusion, IM VERY HAPPY AND STILL SS-ING WHENEVER I THINK ABOUT IT! lol.. sekian, terima kasih!

you're my destiny pics are here!!

2008-10-03T02:52:00.005+08:00

Event: Meet the Fans Session

Time: 6.30pm

Venue: The Summit USJ Auditorium

Joe Chen Qiao En & Ethan Ruan Jing Tian
Ethan is so so tall.. and Joe is so so skinny..

SHOUT!! See, he is super duper cute =^^=

This is when our rep asked ethan question.. He went near this girl and then sat down directly..
I was so crazy when he sat there!! arhhhh!! polite right?
This isn't enough.. He then asked the girl to sit beside him.. omg.. almost faint.. jealous-nya..

hello~ by ethan.. almost got electrocuted.. lol..

Joe smiled happily.. so pretty... she's hot!!

Look at their reaction.. C~U~T~E right??

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Event: You're My Destiny Promo Tour 2008

Time: 8.30pm

Venue: The Summit USJ External Carpark

I can took the pics right in front of them at first but ended up snapping from the side because all the MY FM winners(i was one of them) were briefed on the what to do on stage during the interactive session with ethan and joe.

Ethan is soooo cute and handsome.. he looked hot in his green tight shirt.. like it man..

Joe and Ethan were joking and playing around during the gaming session.. they showed the true side of them in front of us.. what a sweet 'couple'..

phew-wit~ JOE CHEN QIAO EN IS VERY VERY HOT! The way she wore would probably made lotsa guys "think deeply.." does this sounds pervert? no right no right?? lol..

See.. ethan played till sweat edi.. but this showed his man-ness! wanna faint again..

handsome+man+tall ethan with pretty+lady+hot joe

CUTE!!! CUTE!!! CUTE!!!

his smiled 'can4 lan4-ly' so follow me and say.. CUTE!!

Can you see his little eyes? so... CUTE again...

Now, I bet you know what to say lar.. CUTE!! WRONG!!! It's HOT!! Do u know why it's HOT? If he's not hot why was he sweating? haha.. lame and stupid..

closer view of this little cute and hot guy ethan..

Did i mention previously that ethan hold my hand(more specifically wrist) when i was imitating his act in the drama? He hold my wrist and wanted to get me to move in front so that the audience could see my face expression clearly but in between my legs were the dvd boxset and stuffs so i could just move a lil bit.. then he noticed that i couldn't walk that far and he released his hand , looking at me, and said that my eyebrow was still 'shaking'.. omg! the eyebrow was 'shaking' naturally that time.. i couldn't even make my eyebrow 'shake' now.. I felt so blissful at that moment... ss-ing... okok, better stop here now, if not plenty of eggs would be thrown at me.. c ya!

i've lotsa things to buy!!

2008-10-03T02:16:00.002+08:00

wow.. something just entered my mind and i realised that i need to buy these stuffs ( mostly IT stuffs...)
-psp pouch
reason: my psp needs protection. i feel so sorry to 'him' when i saw 'bruises' on his face...
heartache man..

-camera pouch
reason: my camera needs protection too!! it has been in the wrong 'world' throughout these 8
months (i just keep it in my sis's hp pouch which is not shock-absorbent and im scared to see if
there are any 'scars' or 'bruises' on his face.. touch wood..)

-external hard disk drive
reason: im still using the 1G pendrive given by taylor last year. and 1G is not enough if u
wanna save ur music, pics, videos, assignments, etc... i need a larger storage capacity...

-iPod
reason: the mp4 player which im using now has some 'FACE PROBLEM'. 'His' face is too dry
until it cracked when i was sleeping by his side. I did not put all my body mass on it, not at all!! It was by my side and his face just cracked when i was turning my body. IM INNOCENT!!

so in conclusion, the 4 stuffs above would cost me around rm800++ and i don't want my parents to pay for them especially iPod and psp pouch because those are the things i want for my sake only... oh no.. my heart is bleeding terribly, and my purse is bleeding horribly as well... erm, by the way, are my reasons reasonable? lol..

I'm lucky....

2008-09-27T02:25:00.003+08:00

yay! we are done with human physio test and what's up next?? hohoho.. IT'S HOLIDAYS!! damn excited.. but got my general chem results this afternoon.. i did badly for this paper... T.T
nvm, went to summit just now with xinnee for the 'you're my destiny' promo tour! walao, ethan ruan is tall and cute!! He's very polite too!! He'll shake ur hand whenever u show him ur hand.. I've participated in the game and wow... he did noticed me when i was imitating his act in the drama ( every participant must follow the way the actors act in the drama) lol.. I'm good at face expression u know... coz my face has a lot of elastic fibres is it??
anyway, we've took pic with them (ethan ruan and joe chen qiao en) twice!! first during the meet the fans session and second one was during the autography session! hopefully they send me all the pics.. I'm quite lucky these days... can meet them and also, i've won autographs of zheng yuan chang and danson tang for the 'they kiss again' contest. I'll appreciate every moment of it because i know that i would not be that lucky next time.. jia you ba chee shan!!!(owh, that was spoken by ethan to joe in the drama in the 1st episode..) selamat hari raya to all my frenz!! cheers~ love you, you and you! ok lar, i like *u* **n!! I'm a su-la.. sry.. starting to ss edi.. bye!
*p/s: photos will be uploaded soon due to my laziness...

S-H-I-T!!! what the hell...

2008-09-19T02:12:00.003+08:00

what the hell lar.. was doing human physio report then only i realised that our data was incorrect!! The data collected was supposedly correct at the beginning while we were 'playing' with that stimulator. walao!! then all of a sudden that dont-know-what-to-say-about-her-lecturer came to our group and told us that the pattern of our stimulus thingy was inverted. and..so... she did a VERY VERY GREAT JOB!! she clicked on somewhere in the software and inverted the graph! the actual pattern of the graph should be like a sigma curve but what we've got from the data was a terribly ugly-looking curve and the shape is totally different and out... just because of the good deed of that "BRILLIANT" lecturer, all the readings that we obtained were of negative values! zha dou! and we still thought that we were having the similar results as other groups! i wanna shout this edi lar... wtf!!! if dont know then dont pretend that you know lar! wtf!!! sry for using vulgar words twice.. Basically my grp is doomed edi... shit man... tmr have to hand in the report some more.. what the hell... yor... but so far noone informs me about that... how how how?? stupid....!@#$%^&*()*~ hate her!!!

~自我加油之贴~

2008-09-12T20:32:00.002+08:00

我真的觉得我不是个好女儿，最近脾气不知怎么了，很不好！或许压力变大了。。妈妈问我东西，我却以不耐烦的语气回答她，然后就在客厅睡着了。妈妈不但没怪我，反而还把我叫醒，而且也把我的包包啊、钥匙啊、书啊都放在一起，正准备拿上我房。我醒来是看到眼前的一切，心里很愧疚！我对妈妈的态度那么恶劣，妈妈却坦然接受我的任性，哎，不孝啊！
昨天好些了，妈妈问我东西，虽然坏脾气又犯了，可是幸好我还是控制住了！哈哈！耶！^^v
我一定要加油，把我的脾养好点儿，就不会有邪气入侵了！

我已压抑于心里许久了。。。

2008-09-12T20:12:00.003+08:00

拜托你们啦，我最不喜欢你们为了挽留他而在他面前对他万般地好，对他嘘寒问暖，私底下却说他的不是！我觉得这样很虚伪耶！他来的时候表面上没什么东西，走了过后又拼命问我他来的目的是什么。又说他心图不轨，又说他这个啦、那个啦，很烦捏！我就是不爽虚情假意、心口不一的人！心好不舒服，真想找个草原尽情地在那边狂喊啊！！！

I could hear what my heart says to me...

2008-09-12T19:41:00.003+08:00

I didn't know why I was glad and happy to see him back. I used to hate him for being stupid. Stupid as in living with other 'ALIENS' or 'INHUMANE SPECIES' instead of staying here ; stupid as in decided to work instead of studying. Before this I thought I could just don't bother about him and live my life without him. But now, I was wrong! I counted him in without my notice when we were buying movie tickets. Luckily I was not the one who was buying the tickets. I did not tell anyone about this. Haiz.. I don't really hate him now. I just respect what he had chosen and hopefully he'll do well. STILL, he is part of us! Suddenly so emo edi~ DAMN!

I have a dream- to have a sponge brain

2008-08-30T10:51:00.003+08:00

Yo frenz... Had my first exam(Principles in Human Nutrition) in uni yesterday.. I finished my reading on the day itself (just a 4-pgs vitamin E lecture notes only). Felt nervous once i was in the exam hall. It's like stepping in to the exam hall after 6-7 months and had an exam there. phew~ At first I thought the questions that will be asked are more on definition but actually, haha... the only definition that i need to write was about 'essential amino acids'.. and another definition asking question was in the MCQs.
I did a lot of mistakes this time... because i didn't read the lecture notes carefully.. haiz! Whatever it is, IT'S OVER!(quoted by xiuqi)
Will be having another exam on general chemistry next friday.. having holiday mood since im done with the test because mon has another holiday! woo~
oh ya, i need a sponge brain which can absorbs everything written in the notes. K lar, ciao.. gotta plan when to revise gen chem's and so on... bye...

Joan's Birthday

2008-08-18T19:38:00.005+08:00

Celebrated joan's birthday last saturday. We really did give her a surprise. At first all of us send her bday wishes at 12am on her bday saying that we are busy with our matter and so couldn't celebrate with her this year(we are not lying,we are busy). haha.. And she was so disappointed with us... We felt guilty for this...

So, gathered at puiyen's house at 1.30pm and started discussing about the treasure-hunting plan. Meanwhile, we've made some videos for her... blablabla... Then, puiyen was told to call joan, telling her that she doesnt understand the econs thingy and so asked for her help. Joan said ok. After that, we headed to joan's house which is just a stone throw from py's house.. Aiya, don't know how to say... Puiyen went into joan's house first while the others (us) waited outside..

Due to the strong wind, the candles we lighted just went off. Then i called joan's sister (megan) and asked her to open the gate for us. HAHA~

After that treasure hunt started.

this is the birthday girl joan

We had great moments that day... haha.. once again, happy birthday baby! and thanks to everyone of u who had put effort for this celebration.

CONGRATZ, LEE CHONG WEI!

2008-08-18T19:14:00.002+08:00

woo~ badminton single for men is over! lee chong wei vs lin dan. Lee Chong Wei had tried his very best in this match, so i personally will still be happy and proud of him.. No one can criticise his performance. Whatever it is, HE IS OUR HERO! Just imagine you are the ONLY ONE who is gonna bring pride to your country, every single of the people will put their eyes on you. Do you have 100% confidence that you can win in the match? No right? If no then just keep quiet and stop saying this and that. Sounds serious huh? hehe..

dont-know-what-title-should-i-put

2008-08-12T00:28:00.002+08:00

Actually never plan to tell this to everyone here..
I AM CLUELESS!!!

Dad's gonna have a cardiac surgery this wednesday. I was okay with this news at first but sis said something just now. Her words just reminded me and made me worry.

Sis:" Why must the surgery be done now?"
Me: "Owh, ya hor.. this month is 'that' month.. oh no.."

SO, all i can do is to wish dad luck on that day and pray hard for him. But am i too late to pray for him now? Sometimes I just feel that I'm very 'jin gak' . I'll only pray to my God whenever i need help. Will THEY help me? I'm clueless...
ba ba, jia you!!!

stupid post full of craps and nonsense

2008-08-10T03:15:00.003+08:00

what I dislike:
- those mui mui zai who like to act cute and dress up lala-ly and also talk childishly... (walao, beh-tahan wei)
- guys who walk sissy-ly with their butt shaking terribly
- smokers
- sarcastic people
- long-haired guys, exception for artistes because they just look good in their shoulder-length hair...
- lcly people

I like:
- friends who can joke around, play around and study together...
- people with GREAT sense of humour
- cute-in-natural, not fake one...
-anyone who doesn't have any of the traits in 'what i dislike' mentioned above..

hello friends!

2008-08-08T21:13:00.000+08:00

Im very sorry to inform u guys that the previous blog has been deleted by me UNWILLINGLY... because my previous blog kena virus so im forced to delete it..
Life is okay here in imu. Yesterday was quite bad luck. Pearly's car and my car were locked inside the open carpark. Darn! It was 12am and we were watching chinese singing competition at imu. Do u guys know an artiste named Jym? He was one of the top-5 finalists in Astro Talent Quest in 2006 if not mistaken. The singing competition was supposed to be held at 6.30pm but ended up to start at 7.30pm... If the event started earlier, pearly and me wouldn't be that 'sui'.
So at first we 'CLIMBED' up the stairs to reach the open carpark. But eventually we found that the carpark has been locked. We then try to climb over the fence but failed as the fence will rosak. After that, we went down using the stairs again (stairs is the ONLY way to access to the carpark which is located on top of the hill). I was so scared as this month is 'that' month. haiz.. Used another way which is a longer way. Luckily i stopped by in front of Vista C( it's a condo in front of imu) and asked the guard over there. The guard asked us to go to the imu security dept. Walked back to imu again..... *tiring* Finally we managed to rescue our car out from that carpark. phew~
what a coincincidence.. i re-created this blog on this meaningful day 08-08-08. In other words, my little baby go back into the plasenta(sry, this is in BM.. I forget how to spell it in english..p-l-a-c-e-a-n-t-a??) and the reborn again.
okay that's all.. Don't have any pics to be uploaded at the moment.. got videos for the chinese singing competition but lazy to convert it. Anyhow, congratz to Georgen from OUR BATCH to be the champion of this singing contest. He has good vocals, I have to admit this. haha!!(add this haha so that this post wont look so serious) Oh ya, I GOT JYM'S SIGNATURE!!! yeah!